God Is My Husband

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I have an issue with questioning who my future husband will be.  I inspect many people who come across my path.  I have always been husband focused.  I hate this.  It is a desire that never meets satisfaction.  I believe that everything will work out for my good, even the minor, more pesky challenges that I face.  Even this issue I keep having.  I believe that God uses this need within me to help me understand that he is my husband.  No, I don’t believe it is wrong to remarry and I know I will marry again, but this time I have a new purpose, and that is to please Jesus and have true contentment.  Not a life of my own making, but rather of his choosing.  As I keep asking, “who is my husband”, I am reminded of the way God showed my heart to me today and revealed to me that he is working on my behalf about diverse things.  Then I am once again reminded that God is my husband.  What does it mean to call God my husband?  It means that he watches out for me.  He is faithful to me and is thinking about me.  He understands me like no one else can understand me, and he is for me and not against me.  He is the best listener.  He is the most loyal friend.  He is there even when I don’t deserve it.  He cherishes me and tells me how much he adores me.  He gives me gifts.  He is Sovereign and reveals to me that he is in control and that I have to only trust him and obey.  God is so Sovereign, when I look upon this I have a deeper need within me met that wants to be submissive.  I want to let him lead me.  I want to be cared for and loved.  I don’t want to be mistreated.  God is truly my husband, and I can enjoy this union with him even better than if I was married to a carnal man.  Lord, help me forget about this need or put it in its proper place.  Amen.

What is Your Will Lord? What Do You Seek?

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Lord, what is your will?  Let’s be honest, when we ask this question about something, it is because our flesh wants it and hopes that God will say yes.  There is nothing wrong with asking.  As a matter of fact we are told that if anyone lacks wisdom, that he should ask and that the God who does not find fault, will give it to him.  He doesn’t find fault.  That means that when we have any guilt or aren’t sure if our question is even worth asking, he doesn’t find fault and we can safely come to him with any and every need.  This is important to understand.  So when we ask, and we truly want to know what God’s will is, then he will tell us.  The truth is that we often get what we seek.  If we want to be justified in doing something, then that may be what we receive when we pray.  If we want the truth and seek it, then the Lord will give that too.  Think about this, when he was pleased with Solomon he offered to give him anything that he asked for.  If all he wanted was a wife, he would have received it. If he wanted fame or fortune, then the Lord would have given that to him, without finding fault.  You see, those with religious spirits still trying to put God in a box also want to tell you that God would never give you something outside of his perfect will for you, but if you really look at history you will see that that is not true.  God had intended on using Moses alone to lead his people and speak, but Moses insisted that he needed help, so God went ahead and anointed Aaron for the place.  That was not God’s original plan.  He planned to be the only ruler of Israel as well, yet they insisted on a King, and he then began anointed kings for them.  That was not God’s original plan.  God is not a formula.  God is not an unforgiving tyrant.  God is slow to anger and is very patient and understanding.  Not only did he adjust what he felt was best for his children after they insisted, but he also worked to make their desire work for them, without finding fault.  When Moses started having difficulty dealing with rebellious people, do we see God saying, “well if you had done things my way instead of insisting on doing things your own way, then this wouldn’t have happened”?  No, because that would mean that God is the type who finds fault, but we read in James that God gives generously, “without finding fault” (James 1:5).  You know, I wouldn’t put it past those who insist on maintaining their religious image of tyrannical God rationalizing that wording right out of that verse.  However, we are shown many things when we really seek God, he can and does adjust his original plans for his children, without finding fault.  However, there does seem to be issues that arise when we insist on doing things our way, deviating from his original plan.  So back to what I was saying, if we seek grace to have things done our way, God might allow it and give us what we seek.  Yet, when we seek the truth and to do things according to his original plan, he will do that too.  Solomon asked for wisdom, which happened to result in many wives and riches, and fame as well.  He happened to ask for the right thing.  Did he know that would happen when he sought it?  Probably not, just a guess.  We truly do get what we seek.  So we should ask ourselves, “what am I seeking?”  We are told, “seek, and you will find, knock and the door will be opened” (Matthew 7:7).  We are also told that even if that door we want to open will be opened if we keep knocking and knocking, Jesus gave a parable about a man going to a friend’s home seeking bread, and at first the man told him to go away, yet he kept knocking and knocking until finally the man answered and gave him what he sought.  He said that in this way, if we keep knocking on the door of heaven, we will get it.  But, should you ?  Remember, if it is wisdom that you lack, God will give that to you.. if you seek it.

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I Praise You

I praise you father, for you have given me peace, a new life, a new hope, a new purpose. Please burn within me a desire to always obey you, to always seek you with all my heart. Please don’t allow my heart to ever be content with “just ok”. How easy it is for anyone to lose sight of you. How easy it is to forget how amazing you are. Humans are dumb sometimes. Father we need your grace to keep drawing our hearts to you. Thank you father for teaching me to recognize all the ways that you participate in my life, in our lives. Thank you for teaching me your heart. Thank you for preparing me to grow up even more in you. I want your will for my life. I want your spirit to impregnate all of my life, my kids, my home, my friends, my family. When we invite you into our lives you are so good that you want to touch every aspect of our lives. You care about us. You are so good to us, we just have been blinded by Satan, by the deception of the carnal man who is dead to you yet still attempts to direct our lives through its evil desires. I understand that you only want people who will truly love and appreciate you. This is why you expect us to draw close to you, this is why you say that when we seek you with all our hearts we will find you. However, it is only by your grace that we even think about you, that we are even mindful of you. Thank you for forgiving our evil hearts. You say taste and see that you are good, so you give us discontentment with the natural order of things apart from you, so that we will seek someone so much better. I want all of you, thank you for choosing me and for calling me. Anyone who doesn’t heed your beckoning to come away with you is a fool. Only father I ask that you will open their eyes let them see through the fog of deception and see past the lying spirit who is telling them that his way is enough. Let them be smart enough to see the truth and to reach for you, to draw close to you, to have an affair with you. Because you father are the most perfect lover for our souls. Your word says that you are like a treasure hidden in a field that the person who finds you would go and sell all they possess in order to own that field so that they can have you. There is no better way, there is no better God to serve. Let them smell the stench of fake. Thank you father for this is the day that you have made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. Amen.