I had a dream this morning that I was tempted and eager to give into that temptation. As a matter of fact I had made a choice to give in, but while preparing to give in to the lusts of the flesh, I briefly looked to God and prayed. What happened next was that he closed the doors. I could have pushed them open and forced the sin, but instead I went with it and accepted that God looked out for me and prevented me from sinning. While laying in bed awake afterwards I was feeling the weight of my flesh desires verses my knowledge of what is right. I hate the idea of is standing before God after I had knowingly given into sin, especially after all that he has done for me, such as giving me the gift of knowledge and many mercies. How can I not stand there condemned? I would accuse myself! I don’t need Satan to accuse me. Usually scenarios like what happened in my dream adds to my anxiety because I know better, yet I choose to engage in that temptation anyways. But, in my dream God delivered me. God has forgiven me. I also think of all the people who I judged because they gave into their weaknesses and knowingly sinned against me or a loved one. Here’s a difficult concept for some people to accept, God knows we are evil in our flesh nature, and he has chosen to forgive us. Jesus died so that when I sin, it can be forgiven. Does that mean that I or anyone should knowingly engage in sin? No, we should not knowingly engage in sins, yet there are times when we will. If it was not for his forgiveness, great love, and mercy then who could stand? No one could stand. I am just not good enough. No one is good enough. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. This is reason to praise God. He loved us enough that while we were sinners he died for us. Lord, please help me remember that forgiveness is necessary in relationships even when the other person lets us down, and that love covers a multitude of sins. Thank you for reminding me that you love me despite my temptations and failures. It is my desire that I won’t fail anymore. Help me be stronger than I am, yet I am grateful that without your grace I cannot succeed. It is because you love me and forgive me that I am able to stand. Deliver me from evil, and from temptations. Lift up my feet so that I will soar above the trials and not hit my feet on the stones. I am righteous because you have loved me and because I said no even though I could have. You want me to remember that. I was tempted, but when you made a way out, I took it. Thank you for making a way out. Thank you for encouraging me that before your site and because of your great wisdom, I am righteous. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. Amen. What the Lord is telling me this morning is that this is spiritual warfare, and that no weapon formed against me will prosper. Hallelujah!
I am reminded today of how unworthy we are. The Lord knew we were unworthy, so he died for us in order to fill in the gap for us. First we have the law, man’s transgression against the law, separation from God, and then came Jesus. He became sin, chastised and punished, so that we can be reconciled. He knew we were unworthy. He loved us despite our unworthiness. Now we have Christian brothers and sisters casting stones at each other, they are saying, “you are unworthy of me! You are unworthy of my time, of my energy, you are a leech upon my life. You do not treat me with respect. Depart from me, you are unworthy!” They say these things because people generally are unworthy, but those casting judgments are not any better. The Lord is showing me as I seek him about being rejected by friends who have said to themselves that I am unworthy. I said something they didn’t like, so now I’m unworthy. When we say a person is unworthy, we are saying to them, “you are not good enough for me, you do not measure up. You do not deserve my attention or my love. Depart from me”. This has happened so much that it is evident that the Lord has a lesson in it. So I asked him why, he told me that his people don’t know how to forgive. They have their own expectations of what is the right way, as a matter of fact a friend shared with me a scripture in Proverbs where it says that every man thinks that they are right in their own eyes (Proverbs 21:2), but their way is not right when they judge others as unworthy. That is the truth. What is worse is that as I have sought the Lord in how to deal with these people who are now unworthy of my effort, in my own spiritual pride and feelings of rejection I want to move on and wipe the dust from my feet, but Jesus said, “no, forgive them”. I told him that these people don’t even want anything to do with me, why should I pray for them to change their hearts. He told me that it was wrong for them to settle in their hearts to not forgive, and that their rejection of me didn’t mean that I was unworthy, it meant that their judgement was wrong, and that there is no person who I am going to have a relationship with who I won’t at some point in time have to walk in forgiveness. Jesus was surrounded by people. He had devoted disciples, and he also had many more followers and admirers, yet when push came to shove, he was truly alone. They didn’t love him because they were good people, rather they loved him because he first loved them and had something to give them. He had a little piece of God in him. Jesus couldn’t count on a single one of them to truly love in at the end. When he hung on that cross, even God turned his face from him. He was utterly alone. We are to love people because they need it, not because they are worthy. We are to forgive people because they need it, not because they are worthy. In the end it isn’t about who was right or who was wrong. In the end we are all imperfect. In the end, what will matter is that we loved and that we are loved by the only one who ever truly loved us in the first place. God is the one who is worthy. Even Jesus was his design and his gift to us. God gave him up. It is time that we believers start showing the world a little piece of Jesus. It is time that we start seeking deliverance from unforgiveness. It is time that we rid the words “unworthy” from our vocabulary unless we are discussing our own worth while bowing at God’s feet. It is time that we see that there is no person who is worthy, and at the same time every person is worthy because Jesus said he was. If Jesus said that person was worthy, God forbid I ever say that a person is unworthy again. Lord Jesus, please help us get this revelation. Please help us have genuine love. Thank you for making us worthy even though we were not. Thank you for loving everyone God. We are worthy now because you said it, though we are all unworthy.