Oh this sin is so ingrained in me. I have found so much comfort in food most of my life. Now it is time I let it go… the very thought of doing this has sent me into a feeding frenzy.. sigh. Every time I decide I’m going to kick it and not eat until I am truly hungry something very appetizing beckons me from the refrigerator, and now I am finding myself eating not only when I am not truly hungry, but twice as much as I need. Oh the shame, and to think that people in Africa have very little to eat, or nothing at all some days. However, I have the mind of Christ, and old things pass away and all things become new. This is just the beginning. It wasn’t long ago when I gave up the nasty habit of smoking cigarettes and at first I experienced the same thing. I smoked more when I thought about it, to the point of chain smoking 2-3 cigarettes with my lungs burning and hurting, hearing words in the back of my mind more like doubts saying “you will never kick this, you don’t want to kick it”. Oh, it was a struggle alright, but thank God he didn’t give up on me and let me keep doing it. I didn’t think I ever could, or that I ever would. I didn’t think I wanted to bad enough, however I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, and I did overcome. That was over 4 months ago. But my mind says “you have been addicted to food for so much longer.. you have tried and failed so many more times” shhhh flesh machinery trying to keep me in bondage. The word that my spirit speaks to me today is “those who he sets free are free indeed” your days are numbered gluttony. So, I had recently attempted a diet.. again. Recalling how good I felt when I did it and succeeded a year ago. What I failed to remember is how I relapsed afterwards and not only gained the weight I lost back, but plus some. I have successfully lost weight using principles from christian weight loss programs such as weigh down workshop and thin within. So these are the principles I am going off now, though I am not in any official weight loss programs now. I have tried and failed at several diets and had succeeded in these programs to an extent in that I couldn’t continue with them through my pregnancies. Others had but I didn’t. However, one thing I learned in these programs and that I was recently reminded of in my time in researching my newest diet, that dieting is not a good idea.. ever. A way of life is the way to go. So I commit to myself right now that if it takes the rest of my life to accomplish this new way of life, it will still be worth it. There is no need to hurry except for vanity which is not God’s plan. He accepts me perfectly as I look right now and as I am. Yet he still wants me to be free. I will start this with prayer “Lord, I trust that you will set this captive free”. That is a prayer of faith. Amen.