Prophesies

Within the last 48 hours I’ve had 3 men approach me and give me a word from the Lord. Each word has pertained to ministry. I’m being told God has given me favor. I’m told I will lead many people and help them. I’ve been told God will help me and he’s with me. It is God who has inspired a few destiny helpers to think to pray for me regarding these things. The thing is that I already know God is leading me into evangelism. I know I will visit other countries and lead people. I don’t know how, except that God will guide. I don’t need people to validate this to me, however the fact that God inspired people to approach me and speak to me concerning this is very encouraging. I am writing a book. I feel like I’ve been saying this forever, but it’s taken me this long to get to this point. It is intimidating writing this book because I’ve never written a book before, though I know this is what I’m made for. I finally got through my outline which I had taken a short cut and tried to skip doing an outline, which just ended up delaying the process more. I would claim that it’s been a waste of time, but that would be false. Even though I haven’t made the progress I’d wanted to by now, all the work I had put into brain mapping, outlining, writing thoughts here and there.. filling up note book after note book with ideas, all eventually lead me to the actual writing of the book. So all the books and articles I’ve read about writing a book has been accurate in that they all say one common thing, and that is that at the end of the day, what matters is to write. So I had finally gritted my teeth and pushed myself past the automatic discouragement, fear, and distractions that want to derail me. I also never sit down anymore to write without first praying for God’s grace to help me write. This has been fundamental in getting me through the process. I am confident that future books (a couple are already in the budding stages) won’t be so painfully long to get accomplished.

I’ve had several prophesies, dreams, and visions regarding my future in ministry. I had been afraid to openly talk about such things for fear that it looks like I’m bragging. However, I am continually reminded by the Lord that the reason why he shows me some things is so that I can declare it from the mountain tops. Sure, there are areas that I could have more discretion in, and discretion is what I have been asking for a lot lately. Discretion of the spirits of every matter, because up til now during my entire spirit filled life I had been pulled by two voices. God’s and the counterfeit, 3 if you consider my own. I had asked people about this experience much this past year, and I don’t get a lot of feedback, other than “his sheep know his voice”.. which at first I took as offense because I felt like they were implying I didn’t know God’s voice. People just aren’t always going to be able to judge our experiences because they are so personal and they just cannot know unless they were able to walk in our shoes for some days. The good that comes from this is that there is a purpose for all that we go through, and I have discovered that the reason I’ve been allowed to go through the spiritual experiences I have, especially concerning the spirit of fear, is so I can teach the world about distinguishing between God’s voice and Satan’s voice. This is preparation for the anti-Christ, because the biggest issue during that time will be that people will be lead astray and deceived by the counterfeit spirits, the signs and miracles, the appearance of Godliness that all have an appearance of wisdom, but all of them deny that Jesus is the Christ. Even believers will be deceived i believe. I believe this adamantly because of my own personal trial with being confused about the voice of the spirit of fear vs God’s holy spirit. Satan’s presence is so crafty that the feelings are very similar to that of the holy spirit, the words can be scriptural, yet have the wrong spirit. What about when you are prophetic but you hear two voices? It sounds like the same voice, however one voice leads you one direction, and the other the opposite direction. It is clear to me now that the only way a person will be able to rise above and overcome in following the Lord during such an experience is if they are truly crucifying their life, picking up their cross and truly obeying. The knowledge of the word in itself is dangerously deceptive in that knowledge can puff up and lead one to fool themselves into thinking they are in the right because they know what is right. Yet as they continue not obey the word they know, they will be lead the wrong way.. and think they are right in the process. God has set up our lives in a way that requires true devotion in order for us to be saved. However, even if we turn to the right or to the left, we will always hear a voice behind us telling us the right way… he will finish the good work he began in us that is for sure. Amen.

Dear Lord

You have told me this week that the reason my plan failed is because I didnt listen to you in the first place, and rather than relying on you I was afraid and relied on man. No more by your grace. You keep moving me to place all my cares in your hands, and also to make you my portion and my source . Thank you holy God. Please help my book and my writings bring you glory and touch lives as you can use it the best. Your word is so rich with life that it only takes a small drop to infect and save a life. By the leading of your spirit I really just wanted to honor and praise you. You are the best lover, you care about souls. You also work to ensure that every soul is redeemed dear Savior and God allows you to create every story into a timeless, endless story. I am blessed beyond measure because im redeemed. 💖I love you Lord. Thank you for being you. Be blessed today. Amen.

How Much Do You Love God

My lesson this week is to not worry. The Lord showed it to me as a command and I posted it in a lesson, presenting it as sin. Many said they never thought about it that way, a couple people disagreed.. one lady very adamantly. I asked her how she can not think it is a sin when it is commanded for us not to worry. If we as humans considered worry to be punishable, then we might take this command more seriously. She pointed out that sin is violating the 10 commandments, but if you think about it.. worrying violates the greatest commandment, and that is that we should love the Lord our God first and with all of our strength. Jesus teaches us that if we truly love God, then we will keep his commandments.

Loving God means that we celebrate who he is, and when we really believe in him, then we trust him. It is very hurtful when the person who says they love you cannot trust you. How would you feel if someone says they love you in one breath , yet in the next breath they ask us to prove we are trust worthy.. my next question to that person is.. “you say you love you.. but you question my integrity.. so how can you mean it when you say you love me.. if you don’t realize who I really am?”. When asked what to call him, God replied “I am that I am”.

In essence , loving God means that we love what makes him who he is. Who is he? He is perfect love, he is able, he is faithful, he is omnipresent and omnipotent. So say we don’t trust him means we don’t know who he is.. and if we don’t really understand him, how then can we really mean it if we say we love him.

When we say that we love him, then that means we love what is right, because he is righteous. If we say we love him, then we also mean that we love the truth. So if we say we love him, but then treat his truth as if it is a lie, then we lie when we say we love him and the truth is not in us. This just means that we are deceived. We seem to think that believing in God, or even having respect for God.. means that we love God. But we don’t even know or understand who he is so we don’t really know what we are saying.. until we start obeying his commands. This is so helpful to me. This week ive found grace to really give up a couple things .. including worry. If I worry when im told directly not to.. then it is sin. If i partake in active worry instead of reminding my mind what scripture says, and that my God is able, faithful or that he cares about me.. then i am disbelieving.. and disbelief is sin. Even if one still refuses to call worry and disbelief sin, then we could call it a gateway sin.. disbelief in him and his word leads to sin of every kind. Eve trespassed the and ate forbidden fruit because she allowed herself to disbelieve what God said.. that eating that fruit would lead to permanent death.

If God tells us not to worry about our lives, then he tells us this for a reason. Lord, help us all believe without a shadow of doubt, obey, and enter heavenly rest 💖

Walls

A little more than a year ago i experienced a traumatic heart break in which an ex fiance betrayed me and it was a major shock. He was my last hope at a surviving relationship . We both had come from heart breaks and broken pasts and we used to tell eachother that if we didn’t last, neither of us had it in us to try to have a relationship again. We were both that damaged and broken . He looked me in the eyes and told me how wonderful I was and how dumb the men before me were and promised never to hurt me. For the first time in my life I began to relax and feel like everything would be alright , and then he betrayed me.

This ended up being the best thing that happened in my life. This was the point of surrender for me. Up until this point I had loved the Lord but I had not submitted to him in the area of my love life, and when we don’t submit in one area we end up not submitting in many areas .

The Lord Jesus came to me in spirit one morning when I was heart broke, and put his arm around my shoulders, comforting me. He reminded me of the woman at the well who had had many husbands and also lived with a current man who she wasnt married to, and then they had a conversation about living water verses the water that the world gave. It wasn’t a coincidence that this woman was in her 5th relationship and Jesus told her that those who drink from the water the world gives would thirst again… this was my life. Because i was drinking world water and not the living water I kept having failed relationships . I was the woman at the well. I made a decision that day that from then on I would truly surrender my life to him, especially my relationships. I had tasted the water the world gave me and i kept thirsting. They all failed me, they all hurt me, betrayed me, lied to me, didn’t give me what i longed and craved for.. perfect love .

After I had rededicated my life to the Lord, I knew I would need strength because men had always been my idol next to God.. So i joined a Christian singles site (better than a dating site) so that i could find motivation and strength from other Christians who also sought to be single like me.. or so I thought .. anyways I met many friends and this changed my life…

At first I was prepared to be single for the rest of my days, but the Lord told me he was bringing me a husband because he felt I needed one. I told him that only in him would I ever be able trust again.. I’ve had hope to trust again, but I knew that this was impossible without God..

Today I now see differently by his grace . By his grace I’ve learned that in my years of being hurt Ive built walls, these structures in my mind come now as automatic thoughts… no one can be trusted they say, when the men say the right things my mind says “they all say the right things”, when the men appear right, my mind says “yeah but the devil is a skilled liar and pretender” the men say.. “but im not your ex” but my mind says, “yeah yeah yeah I’ve heard this before ” the men say, “you want someone perfect” and my mind says, “yes i have him, his name is Jesus and you are not it”… the men say, “you need to get over it, move on” my mind says..”i cannot force that you don’t understand “.. the man says, “i cannot be with someone who doubts me” my mind says, “then you are with the wrong person i am unable to trust anyone”.

I’ve struggled with this because how can one have the need and urge to be with someone, yet be hopeless at the same time? “You need counseling Jenifer ” my friend says, my mind says, “years of therapy cannot fix me, because I am unfixable.”

I desperately want to feel safe, not be afraid , but i can’t. The walls my mind have built had become a prison and not a safe haven. But God….

You see something my friends via the holy spirit have been saying to me lately is.. you cannot have faith and doubt at the same time, you cannot have certainty and fear at the same time… the break through came when i understood that I had to make a Choice. Either I believe God or I don’t . My friend said, “are you going to believe God that he will keep you safe and deliver you?”.. the key is to not be anxious but to run to God for everything, and… if he says something, I don’t allow contrary feelings and thoughts to deture me. I also discovered that there is a strong contrary voice with me so i stand against Satan by not only rebuking him… because I got a revelation today that after i was mistreated by one of my exes id had this controlling, unclean spirit with me so i rebuked that by his grace. Now I have a different belief. A year ago I said “I cannot trust anyone “, now I can say sincerely that ,”there are plenty of trustworthy men who are faithful and genuine. There are men who truly love God and who would genuinely love me and treat me well”.. i had been raped by Satan.. mind raped mostly .. and now he is being treaded upon under my feet. I believe in the spiritual aspect of freedom from demonic influence that begins with rebuking the devourer, but that is only part of healing . That is pulling out the root of evil. But healing continues as we become reformed in our thinking .. now i see that these automatic thoughts that have been walls forming a prison i couldnt break free from were first built to protect me. With Satan out of the picture we can begin healing, now with God’s grace I seek to be healed of every painful belief.. it also includes reliving painful memories and seeing Jesus with me this time

..all that was done to me was done by Satan and was a weapon meant to destroy me.. but God will restore all that he took from me. Amen.

Pure Righteousness

Up until now i have been rooted and grounded in fear. Fearing the things that be not as though they were. When one is tossed too and fro by the waves of doubt and fear, they eventually have a decision to make. Will i believe what God told me or my feelings? God doesnt change his mind.

As I pray about the same things that concern me I am reminded that those things I care so much about are not so significant to God like they are to me. He knows they are important to me but instead I am listening to what he is saying to me. What God has to say is what really matters. What matters the most to him is righteousness. However there are so many facets to righteousness. One part of righteousness is doing what is right. We should always seek to treat people fairly. However righteousness doesn’t just end there. There is a way that appears right, but the end result is not right because what is right originates within the soul of a man or woman. Righteousness is credited to us. I’ve experienced this time and time again with God that he will take our deeds that we don’t call good and make them pure and white as snow. The word says that God justifies us. When we come to him with our all, he takes what we have to give and makes it sufficient. The example of the handful of fish and bread is an example of which he used to feed the 5000. Everything in the bible relates and everything that is spiritual has so many facets. Like Sara having a baby for abraham in her old age is an example of how much God will bless us in the little acts of faith. Sara laughed but Abraham believed and eventually God’s will took place in his time frame. Truth is that the Christian is no better then a sinner in our acts of rightness except that God makes our acts right. It is God who justifies, he calls it just so it becomes just. He calls us clean so we become clean. It is all done by the will and hand of God. Just as the world was created because God said it. Who is he that he justifies? It is the one who loves him. This is not obedience that im referring to although obedience has a part in showing God we love him, but we can’t even obey him unless he gives us the grace. This is why in every christian mind we need to settle that it is not out righteouness that God longs for, how can this be so when he himself makes us righteous? Rather, it is the willing, the man who cares enough to acknowledge God, to know him and call upon his name. Those who God chooses he calls them, then he justifies them, then he sanctifies and glorifies. But this is all done by faith. It is what we believe that directs our lives.

What do I believe right now? I believe that my heart is pure like gold and those who love me in truth will blessed. Those who misuse me, abuse me, hurt me, and reject me will be punished. God made me to be a weak thing in a proud world like a little lamb waiting for the slaughter. Who will be my friends? It is a test of faith to those who come into my circle. What will be their fate? I am his.

I also know that what is important, what truly matters in my life right now as i press in is to know how he feels about me. To know i am loved, to understand my worth. When we get this.. to know him and to be known by him.. who do we fear, what do we fear? We can see every matter in the eyes of God’s love. It is from the inside out that God always makes his will come to pass. Things that are not as though they were .. not because they are not.. they just havent matured yet. So now I am convinced that everything that happens in my life is under God’s control. Who chooses to love me in truth and care for me will be blessed. Those who fail that test .. God will deal with as he plans. My God is with me in the midst of everything I am not alone. Frankly it does not matter of others agree or approve. That’s always been the way it is. God make your will known and your will be done and I praise you for your love is faithful and true. Amen.

If you get lost

If God Was there what would he say? He is there and he does care. He has much to say. If you listen what do you hear? The cares of the world drown out his voice. If you got still and strained to hear, would you hear something?

When we cannot seem to hear him, one way to hear him again is to get connected with his grace. It is there, we just must connect. It is like a wave of spirit, a current that we must tap into.. so that we are drifting the same way. We connect to the last place we found him. If you are walking in nature and want to find the river you have played in before then how do you jump in? First you have to walk to the location it is.. which we do by memory.. we look for land marks. We see a familiar twig and near by group of trees… then we know we have found it. God always remains the same, we just get distracted in spirit and focus on the cares of the world, our problems, events, relationships, needs… that same river you played in is still there.. you just got out and traveled on a different path for a while. What was the last thing you recall God said to you? The last lesson you heard? The last chapter in the “good book” you left off at.. just go back to that.. follow the familiar land marks, start with what you recall. If that doesnt work then stop and ask for directions. You can do this by prayer, talking to a trusted friend, asking a mentor to help you find your way…

Not outward appearance

It is becoming clear to me repeatedly that we were created to display God’s glory. I look around and I sometimes see jealous faces because of my anointing that was given to me, however those same faces have not always seen me. They have not seen all the tears I’ve cried nor been there every lonely night that I learned what it meant to have God as my only friend. When God chooses us it is personal. I’ve had little glimpses of what it will be like when we get to heaven. Some of us will be in a higher rank then others yet we will all worship God together. My only desire is to be where he is. When God calls a man or woman and anoints them. Sometimes tjwir fruit is not overly evident. Sometimes they are rough , ignorant , and have some bad habits. But God sees us for who we are. He is not concerned about the opinions of men.. if men were my judge then in would have been in the garbage can but I am chosen. Thank you Lord for judging each person according to matters of the heart and not by outward appearance.