I want to please you

God I want to please you. Please help me be pleasing to you. I find it hard to focus even my thoughts on you as there are so many hindrances in this life to keep us distracted. It takes great discipline to focus on your face and giving you praise. I understand with my mind that it is the right thing to do, however the flesh is deceiving and weak. Help me always put you first. Please make my thoughts pleasing to you, teach me how. Help me worship you and have the words to form a thought about you. I know it is right. Help me walk pleasingly in your sight. I want everything I do to be perfume to you. I want to always have pure motives. I want to understood everything that you think about me. I want more than anything to understand you. I have asked and still have hope that you will let me actually see your face. I wonder what you look like up close and personal. I wonder if you look like a child, or a beggar, or a saint. What of your eyes, do we have to be pure light to see with eyes. Do we have to have special glasses to filter the glory of your face before we see shape? I want to see what you look like. I want to be there with you and be where you are, and I want to dwell with you and always be at your side. I want to know you in the most intimate way. Help me I want to see your face. I want to be where you are, I want to know you. I think that you are maybe not what we would expect to see, maybe you are what we would call “ugly” but yet be the most beautiful because of the inner beauty that emanates. I want intimacy in such a real way, with the Lord of lights. Maybe, just maybe I was designed to truly be the bride of Jesus. Amen.

Discouragement

Discouragement is contrary to hope. You know that feeling, when you start to get excited about something but then you have a contrary thought cross your mind that tells you there is no point to have hope. That is discouragement. It can also be defined as the opposite of courage. Hope gives us something to look forward to, and mixed with faith we have courage. However, when discouragement comes in we lose our courage. I think of a child who loves to paint and after their teacher approaches them and praises their effort and tells them of what potential they have to win a painting contest coming up, they have hope. This child might then have the courage to sign up for the contest, feeling encouraged. Later, however that same child hurries home to tell their parent about it, with their painting in hand, but the parent sees their painting and laughs, telling them they are just setting themselves up for disappointment signing up for the contest. The child then loses the hope they had, and their courage dies as well. Their parent just discouraged them.

In the spiritual realm their is a spirit being called discouragement. He doesn’t want you reaching for your dreams, so he comes and whispers thoughts to you that are contrary to the hope that gives you courage to reach for the stars. Discouragement can also lead to a state of depression, also another spiritual being. My question is regarding that illustration with the child and the art contest, would it really had hurt that bad if he entered the contest and lost? Sure, but which is worse? To have hope and then be let down, or to not even have hope. Many well meaning people find it merciful to take away your hope, however what if the judge of that contest saw the same thing that the art teacher did? Who is to tell us that we don’t have what it takes to make our dreams succeed. If nothing else, trying and failing is a learning experience in which we can learn how we should improve, but don’t stop reaching for the stars. So, what spirit are we listening to? By God’s grace I have recently learned to see my thoughts from an outsider perspective, also known as objectivity. I am learning to be more objective about the thoughts that cross my mind, especially when my emotions start to get pressure to feel depressed. If you are feeling depressed and discouraged then I suggest that you take a step back metaphorically and observe your thoughts. Part of learning to stand up to the devil is to understand that not all the thoughts you have originate from you, or God. Sometimes it really is the devil sitting on your shoulder delivering to you on a platter your personal thoughts.. and this whole time we’ve thought they were ours. Keep in mind that if you discover that your thoughts seem to really be words of discouragement or flaming darts as the bible describes them aimed straight at your courage, that Satan Lies. He lies, which means that whatever he is telling you right now you can surely know that the opposite is the real truth and the real you. Be of good cheer Jesus said, “for I have overcome the world”. Selah…. why so downcast oh my soul, put your hope in God. Amen.

That Feeling-Exposing Oppressions

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There is another side of being a prophet that I don’t like and wish I could understand more. That feeling I sometimes get. I wouldn’t call it anxiety because I understand the feeling and definition of anxiety very well. It’s that feeling. Its a sense of the negative side of the supernatural. There are many positive feelings one will get when in touch with the supernatural such as feeling God, hearing God, seeing God or at least perceiving him. There is no greater feeling in the world then when we are in his presence. No, this is a different feeling altogether. One that has led me to have anxiety but not this time because I have been set free from oppression. That is what this is. Oppression wants in. It used to be in, but now it only lurks through the window. It won’t get in but its very presence is… agitating.. when demons come our way to wage war.. we get more agitated, restless, on edge, edgy, depressed though this time i’m not depressed. I have so many thoughts that come to try to make me depressed.. but i was set free so its like pouring water on a duck.. just runs off the feathers. Along with these thoughts come people.. the same kind of people.. they have similar characteristics… to discourage, to put down, to control, to crush. When you see the same demon in many different faces you begin to learn who your enemy is. Knowledge is key to overcoming evil. Evil has to have a name so to speak. This is why when you watch an exorcism you often see the exorcist demand a name.. because naming him, understanding him and his nature and how he forms weapons against you.. then you can gain power and gain truth. Satan works under the cloak of darkness.. he is deception and he lies and he hides so he won’t be exposed. Instead we see the symptoms of a demon infestation. We see anger,depression, strife, perverse acts.. we see the results but the only way to truly be free of his plague is to pull him out by roots. No Satan you do not have a right to he here. Lucifer you are not welcome I bind you get out of my life, out of my kids life, out of my family’s life, out of the life of the listeners. We rebuke you we take authority and bind you in the name of Jesus Christ and I loose peace, truth, and patience to wait on you and do your will father God. We loose freedom we set the captives free from every shame, every lie, every thing that exalts itself to the truth. Your kingdom come God your will be done in earth and in our lives by your grace we have been set free amen.

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The Little Things

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Sometimes little things can ruin our day. Little things like the way our morning goes before we even get out the door to get our day started. Maybe we lost our keys, our favorite book, car didn’t start, there are so many things that could go wrong. Maybe it was something someone said. Some things are bigger things than others, but some things that totally upset us are little things. Here’s a secret, even big things are also little things when we consider them in the face of God. 2 Corinthians 4:17 says-“For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison”. So what does it mean that our light and momentary afflictions are working for our eternal glory? Well, when we respond by getting angry, maybe yelling a little, cursing a little, or kicking something (all of which I have been guilty of when getting real frustrated, and kicking something doesn’t help anything except causes a little pain), then this glory isn’t necessarily in the works for us. No, this means that our light and momentary afflictions have the potential to work out for our future glory. We are told in Hebrews chapter 12 to endure hardship as discipline from the Lord. It says that he allows us to have hardship because he is our heavenly father who loves us, and we are given an illustration of how we as evil people rebuke our children, and he rebukes us as well, but for our own good. Hebrews 12:11 states-
“No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way”. Do you note that there is a condition here, the condition is that if we are trained by it. A child can either make the disciplinary process productive for themselves, or more grievous. For example, I have a pre-teen daughter who in her hormonal state she is often mean and snotty to her siblings, provoking fights when there doesn’t need to be. In an attempt to correct her I’ve taken away toys or even given her time out. I had given her a choice when given time out, I say to her “when you are ready to quit your attitude, you can come out”. Do you know that this child is so stubborn she will sit there for a very long time still expecting me to tell her that she can come out without changing her attitude or taking any responsibility. She is choosing not to be trained by the discipline she is given and therefore prolongs her disciplinary action, really making it more grievous for herself. This is the way our hardships often work for us as well. Though having a change in attitude doesn’t necessarily take away the hardship, but rather it makes the hardship be cut down to size and this gives us patience and increases our faith and strength.

We are told in James chapter 1 to rejoice when we experience hardships because of the character that it develops and I can relate to this, can you? Have you had a problem that you’ve faced for a very long time that you had prayed and prayed or hoped would go away and have done all you can do to make it go away, yet it really didn’t go away, or rather it took a lot of work and learning to get this weakness under control just to eventually gain character and knowledge that is invaluable in the process? If I am correct, that is what the song “Believer” by Imagine Dragons is about, how the song writer had a life long trial with chronic pain. We wise people learn over time to be grateful for our hardships because we learn that in the long run they develop wonderful things in our character that we cannot obtain otherwise. My personal battle has been with fear. Shortly after I was spirit filled and anointed for great things I experienced the worst fear in my entire life and oppression. It began when I was 17 and made me go a bit crazy in that I prayed constantly to make it go away, and then began a new battle with legalism because in my attempt to make the fear and anxieties go away I attempted to be perfect and follow the law perfectly because I felt very condemned like I had lost my peace with God, my grace and this was extremely traumatic because I was just experiencing the heaven of walking in his spirit. I was later diagnosed with OCD, and attacked it from a medical stand point, which the medication did help. However we are not just physical beings, we are spirit beings. The medication helped ease the strain of fear, but overcoming it took years and year and years of learning, scripture reading and renewing the of the mind, and also deliverance, though this was one spirit that was not going away by the laying on of hands, but rather it has taken getting the truth deep down into my soul. And although it was tormenting I had gotten stronger and stronger and finally it’s about licked, well for the most part. If I had not experienced this fear and then the fight to overcome legalism, learning to be free from the religious spirit then I would not be where I am right now in my understanding and faith. Thank you Jesus. Now, I am experiencing another obstacle that seems to be there to teach me a lesson, and this lesson is to trust God in every situation. Amen, thank you father for the little things that lead to huge lessons. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

The Words of a Prophet (part 1)

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We are blessed with the gift of prophesy, either directly as some are given the gift by the anointing of the holy spirit (and if this is not of the holy spirit then we need to be considering the demon of divination), or passively by enjoying the prophetic word given by someone with this gift.

A true prophetic word has a few key components. The very most essential component is that it originates from God. A prophetic word that comes forth from the prophet’s mouth first was given to the prophet by God, a true prophet will only speak out what the Lord God had imparted to them, whether by a gift of wisdom, knowledge, or revelation. Sometimes it feels like the Lord comes and drops these things in our spirit as a friend describes “into our spiritual womb” and it makes one feel slightly full and burdened as if pregnant and is a relief when we finally utter that word and “give birth” to this spirit baby lol.

So the next component is that the prophetic word is received by and given forth by faith. By faith we learn that it is God who is giving us this message and it is his will that we speak forth this message. It is something that is learned as the prophet Samuel had to learn. When Samuel was still a child and called by the Lord he didn’t recognize this at first, all he knew is that he kept hearing a voice call his name. Finally with some help from a more experienced minister he was taught that when he heard this voice he should turn an ear and say “yes Lord” then listen so this shows us that when this gift is imparted God will call us and speak to us and we can have the “gift” before we ever really understand this. I myself had been given this gift many years ago, but it has taken me all these years to learn the ins and outs of the gift and to mostly have the confidence of faith to use it.. but Satan also knows usually even before we do and will attack that person to darken their star, though sometimes it is these very attacks from the adversary against the prophet that ends up serving to shape and strengthen them in their fight against him. If you are one who has experienced many heart breaks, rejections, devastation then look at it this way- Satan sees you inner star even if you yourself have not seen it yet.

The gift of prophesy is used for a couple of purposes- to exhort, edify, inspire a person a church it will always point to God and not the prophet. Yes the prophet will receive some glory in that they are respected as a man or woman of God but the gift itself is not meant to make us serve that person, but rather to increase our love and service to God.. to be continued…