Waiting For Someone To Care

I had waited for someone to care. Yet Jesus was there, and he cared. I believe that most people at least one time in their life look for and wait for others to truly care. Sometimes we are blessed with those who care, but other times it feels as if no one cares. Jesus always cared. Jesus always cares. Jesus is God in the flesh, God’s son, and the word that was with God from the beginning, and was God per the books of John and 1 John. When people care life is good, but what about when they don’t care? Jesus always cares, and he’s always cared. We were not made on accident, as a matter of fact we are considered the most valuable creations in existence. I was not an accident and you were not an accident. Jesus had your name on his heart when he hung on the cross. The bible tells us that it was for the joy that was set before him that he endured the cross and its shame. It was because of the shame you endured, so that someone could literally say that he has been there. You were never alone. You are still not alone. There is always hope as long as today is called today, and it is when we have come to the end of hope in this life that we are in a position to truly gain life. Jesus said blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of God. It was for the lost, the sinner, the sick, the poor, the fatherless, the rejected, the hated, the proud, the caring, the mother, brother, lover it was for us all that Jesus came to this earth, that his Father, our creator sent him to stand in the gap and become sin, to become shame, to become sick, to become rejected, and afflicted and poor, to be bruised so that we will know that someone cared, and has been there. When Jesus cared, he really cared. He didn’t just say it with a smile and vain promises to always be there, no he showed it that when no one knew the meaning of it, he by faith died for you and me. He cared. Look at the Father who created us. Behold the creator of this world and all life. He is loving. He is kind. He willingly gave up his son and at the same time his life because he cared. He is still there, he still cares. You are not alone. Thank you Jesus for Saving the world, that all who would believe on you and call upon you can have their names written in your book of life.

Thank You Father

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Tonight I am remembering to give credit to who credit is due.  We all have human fathers, some are great fathers, some far from, nevertheless, even if we have great fathers, we must remember to whom credit is due.  It is always due to our heavenly father because all good things are a gift from God, and what is seen is only temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

I always want someone to praise and to meet someone who is praise worthy, yet I find so few people who deserve it.  As a matter of fact, when Jesus was approached and praised as “good teacher”, Jesus quickly replied, “good?  why do you call me good?  only one is good and that is God”.  Yet, I keep seeking that perfect person and yet I keep being disappointed over and over again.  So why do I keep searching hearts for that perfect person?

Maybe it is the Lord raising my standards.  As I seek perfection in others, I also am striving for perfection.  Oh no, I am far from perfection as I don’t meet my own standards on a daily basis, but I keep trying, and I like the person I have become.  As I have gotten to know and understand myself I am growing to really like myself, but this also requires the Lord’s help as he has to help me see myself the way he sees me.

The Lord Jesus is the example of perfect love, and as I have grown to experience it and understand it, I have been able to accept and love myself more.  It also has helped me to love others more as well.  I think that this need for perfection is God given, because he wants us to all be perfect like him.

When others fail us and fail to love us like we need or feel we deserve, then it is because they are lacking a little Jesus in their souls.  Maybe they are Christians but they are exposing areas of imperfection resulting from not being perfected by Christ’s perfect love.  I even hear preachers preaching hostile messages about people teaching people that God is all loving.  I understand their message in that they are concerned that this “Loving God” perception will prevent people from truly repenting, yet what is the world coming to when a preacher preaches against teaching about the love of God?  God is love, and it was because he loved us that he redeemed us.  Whether we love him or not is up to us, and that choice will determine our destiny, yet we cannot even seek him unless he draws us near to him, and he wouldn’t draw us near to him if he hadn’t made a choice to love us without condition.

People get hurt in this life, and they really destroy one another, yet no one has been hurt as much as we hurt God.  Every day that we make a selfish, inconsiderate choice it hurts God.  Every time we neglect to consider him it could hurt him, it is really fortunate that he won’t treat us the way that we treat one another, or even how we deserve.  Do not repay evil with evil, but overcome evil with good.  Jesus did it, so why shouldn’t I?

Thank you Father for resetting my life.  Thank you for being down to earth and caring about my every need.  Thank you for not leaving me orphaned.  Thank you for caring about my family.  Thank you for caring about how people treat me.  Thank you for caring about my soul.  Thank you for sending others into my life to say prayers for me.  Thank you for seeing me.  Thank you for setting my feet on your rock.  Thank you for opening my eyes.  Thank you for deliverance.  Thank you for a hope and a future.  Thank you for understanding.  Thank you for all of your gifts.  Thank you for confidence.  Thank you for shining your light in this clay vessel.  Thank you for your jealousy.  Thank you for fear that leads me to you.  Thank you for humbling me.  Thank you for making me weak.  Thank you for creating me with a need for you.  Thank you for everything.  Thank you my glorious heavenly Father.  I love you because you first loved me.

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Soul Prospering

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Many people associate prospering with having stable finances, or with having loved ones all around them.  Though these things can be called prosperity, they are not the same thing as soul prospering.  A soul may prosper whether the person is rich or poor.  A soul may prosper whether they are loved by many or alone.  Soul prospering has nothing to do with our circumstances, or what we have or not have.  Though every human being would love to have these types of prosperity, it was not lasting.  If your soul prospers based on what is happening around you, then what happens to your soul if circumstances change?  Abraham was promised many descendants, yet before he had died he only had two living sons.  Yet, he still prospered.  Soul prospering comes from the inside out and is based on faith.  It is rooted in what God says about you, and what he promises you.  Your circumstances can look bleak while someone who isn’t Godly seems to have much prosperity, but as I mentioned, circumstances can change.  Even if they never change, one can still have soul prosperity.  When a person’s soul prospers, then they have no fear, and they have much joy and peace.  It is God’s will that we all prosper, even as our soul prospers.  The only way to gain true soul prosperity is to be connected to God, and then the life blood of Jesus flows through our veins giving prosperity to everything.  It assures you that you are accepted, loved, and adored.  It assures you that God cares about every single thing that concerns you and that he is for you and not against you.  It takes all your insecurities away.  It changes us from the inside out, where we are free to be ourselves.  We can now be naked and unashamed.  God wipes all of our tears away.  We are known, we are celebrated, and we know without a shadow of a doubt that that will never change.  We have a future, and we have a hope, even if it is only for eternity where we will never endure sadness again.  Thank you Lord for soul prosperity.  Thank you Jesus for dying so that we can live.

Psalm 16:9 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
    my body also will rest secure”

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Just Keep Trying

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I know how hard it is to overcome an old habit.  What can I say except to keep trying.  This is what I tell myself now, even though I fall almost everyday.  Why do you keep picking yourself up and doing it again, because you can do this!  I say this to myself.  You can do it, you want to do it, you won’t ever be content until you do it.  Keep getting back up, keep trying.  Maybe i need to count all my successes instead of all my failures.  I can succeed most of the day, or for a few days, and then I fail once and it seems as if that one failure cancels out all those successes.  Just keep trying.  You will get it right when you get tired of doing the same old thing every single day.  You will get it right when you want it bad enough, and nothing says you want it bad enough more than to keep trying.  Just keep trying.

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Unworthy

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I am reminded today of how unworthy we are.  The Lord knew we were unworthy, so he died for us in order to fill in the gap for us.  First we have the law, man’s transgression against the law, separation from God, and then came Jesus.  He became sin, chastised and punished, so that we can be reconciled.  He knew we were unworthy.  He loved us despite our unworthiness.  Now we have Christian brothers and sisters casting stones at each other, they are saying, “you are unworthy of me!  You are unworthy of my time, of my energy, you are a leech upon my life.  You do not treat me with respect.  Depart from me, you are unworthy!”  They say these things because people generally are unworthy, but those casting judgments are not any better.  The Lord is showing me as I seek him about being rejected by friends who have said to themselves that I am unworthy.  I said something they didn’t like, so now I’m unworthy.  When we say a person is unworthy, we are saying to them, “you are not good enough for me, you do not measure up.  You do not deserve my attention or my love.  Depart from me”.  This has happened so much that it is evident that the Lord has a lesson in it.  So I asked him why, he told me that his people don’t know how to forgive.  They have their own expectations of what is the right way, as a matter of fact a friend shared with me a scripture in Proverbs where it says that every man thinks that they are right in their own eyes (Proverbs 21:2), but their way is not right when they judge others as unworthy.  That is the truth.  What is worse is that as I have sought the Lord in how to deal with these people who are now unworthy of my effort, in my own spiritual pride and feelings of rejection I want to move on and wipe the dust from my feet, but Jesus said, “no, forgive them”.  I told him that these people don’t even want anything to do with me, why should I pray for them to change their hearts.  He told me that it was wrong for them to settle in their hearts to not forgive, and that their rejection of me didn’t mean that I was unworthy, it meant that their judgement was wrong, and that there is no person who I am going to have a relationship with who I won’t at some point in time have to walk in forgiveness.  Jesus was surrounded by people.  He had devoted disciples, and he also had many more followers and admirers, yet when push came to shove, he was truly alone.  They didn’t love him because they were good people, rather they loved him because he first loved them and had something to give them.  He had a little piece of God in him.  Jesus couldn’t count on a single one of them to truly love in at the end.  When he hung on that cross, even God turned his face from him.  He was utterly alone.  We are to love people because they need it, not because they are worthy.  We are to forgive people because they need it, not because they are worthy.  In the end it isn’t about who was right or who was wrong.  In the end we are all imperfect.  In the end, what will matter is that we loved and that we are loved by the only one who ever truly loved us in the first place.  God is the one who is worthy.  Even Jesus was his design and his gift to us.  God gave him up.  It is time that we believers start showing the world a little piece of Jesus.  It is time that we start seeking deliverance from unforgiveness.  It is time that we rid the words “unworthy” from our vocabulary unless we are discussing our own worth while bowing at God’s feet.  It is time that we see that there is no person who is worthy, and at the same time every person is worthy because Jesus said he was.  If Jesus said that person was worthy, God forbid I ever say that a person is unworthy again.  Lord Jesus, please help us get this revelation.  Please help us have genuine love. Thank you for making us worthy even though we were not.  Thank you for loving everyone God.  We are worthy now because you said it, though we are all unworthy.

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He Delivers Us From Our Troubles

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“Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him from them all”

Psalm 34:19

This is the Lord’s personal promise to me in this season of my life.  He has quickened it to my heart more than once, and then I’ve read it many times in different places.  When I begin to fret about a problem, old or new, I recall this promise.  Then I rest again.  It only takes a tiny bit of faith to move mountains.  It only takes the word of God given to you personally to build your faith.  When he says that he will deliver me from everything, I mean he will deliver me from everything.  His presence comes upon me and shows me the fine details I get caught up thinking about, and he says to me, “I am going to deliver you from all that concerns you”.  How glorious is that promise!  How consuming is the delivering fire of the Lord.  I am reminded once again, he is going to deliver me from all my cares.  Think of a single care, and this is what he said he will deliver you from.  Anything that brings an ounce of interest to my mind, he will deliver me from that and make it right.  My finances, you are going to deliver me from all my troubles, my home needs, you are going to deliver me from all my troubles, my children and family, you will deliver me from my troubles.  My enemies, you will deliver me from all my troubles.  Everything that has been done wrong, you will make all things right.  All things within my thinking and my feeling, you will deliver me from these things.  My relationships, you will deliver me from all my troubles.  All the things that are not right without me, you will deliver me from all my troubles.  All the things I don’t like in my life, you care and you will deliver me from all these troubles.   All those who stand against us, you will deliver me from all my troubles.  You see me, and you care about me.  You care about everything that concerns me.  You see me as beautiful, you have loved me with an all enduing love.  You have been faithful to me.  Surely goodness, and mercy, will follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.  Hallelujah.  You and I are one.

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My Defender, My God

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One thing that I’ve always experienced in my life is rejection coupled with God’s defense.  This is not an accident.  Each one of us is created to reveal his glory according to the proportion of our faith.  It used to surprise me when God revealed his favor for me to someone, they would say, “wow, you were right”.  I knew it all, because God already told me, so why were they so surprised?.  I used to get so upset when people didn’t see my worth or misunderstood me.  Now I have accepted it.  Rarely do people see what God shows me right away.  Eventually the truth is revealed.  It just doesn’t matter to me anymore.  I don’t need another’s approval, I only ever have needed God’s.  God has allowed me to be misunderstood and rejected so that he alone would be my source.  I used to crave affirmation, who doesn’t like affirmation?  Now I just don’t need it.  I only need God’s.  It would be nice if a person would come and stay, but seasons of separation are part of God’s plan.  He won’t ever let someone else take his place in my life.  Not everyone would see this the way that I do, nor would they accept and and understand it, and that doesn’t matter either.  I only need God to tell me that I’m where I need to be.  The times I do get my hopes up and start to put my sites on a person to lift me up, God quickly reminds me that they are but dust.  No one shall take his place of glory in my life.  We can love people, we can fellowship with people, we can assist and receive help from other people, but we should never exalt people to the pedestal of authority that is meant to be God’s.  There was a time that Israel asked God for a king, as a matter of fact they insisted on it.  God did not plan for a person to rule over us.  Kings were not part of his original design.  We pushed for it, so he finally gave us Kings to rule over us.  This was not what he had in mind.  There is no human that is great without God’s anointing.  No one is worthy of praise like God.  As much as I have been let down by others, constantly, I am grateful that this has been my experience.  Yes, I am sensitive.  Yes, I expect perfection, but is that a bad thing?  It is when I am looking to a person to be that God.  God is who I have always longed for.  I am designed to worship him alone.  Because I have had the grace to understand his forgiveness I can walk in forgiveness towards others.  Dealing with people requires a large dose of forgiving, but here’s the thing.  If you expect to deal with a person and not be let down, you are in for a long bumpy ride. People are made from dust.  God reminds me of this over and over again so I can remember that he is God, and no person is anywhere near his throne to be worshiped.    If we have God, how can we ever go wrong?  Who can speak against us?  No, we don’t need a King.  We need to worship God. Don’t get discouraged when others fail you or don’t understand you.  God will defend you.  You only need his love.  Thank you God for always defending me.

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Set A Fire

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Dear Lord,

Set a fire in every person’s soul.  Burn away the chaff, expose the lies, show us who you are so that we will see you in Spirit and in Truth.  Show us your love.  Show us your face.  Let your truth burn deep within our souls.  Set my heart on fire.  I want all that is not of you to burn away.  Heal my hurts, bind up my wounds.  Make what is old pass away, that I will come from the fire brand new.  I want to be who you made me to be.  Consume my heart and my life Lord.  Let only your will be what is left.  Cause my entire life to be worship to you.  Let everything within me glorify you always, my husband, my King, My God.  Come Holy Fire.  Thank you loving God.  Amen.

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Qualified- The Veil Was Torn

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Matthew 27:50-51 KJV

“Jesus, when he had cried again with a loud voice, yielded up the ghost.  And, behold, the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the bottom; and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent”

The veil was torn after Jesus died.  What does this mean?  It means that we were qualified.  Qualified for what?  Prior to the event of Jesus crucifixion, only the qualified high priest was permitted to enter the Holy of Holies, a small room with a candle and golden alter, which was hidden by the veil.  There, he burned incense and sprinkled sacrificial animal blood on the alter to God because this was God’s requirement for the remission of sins.  This was done once a year, and it was a solemn and sacred event.

When Jesus died, the veil to the Holy of Holies tore in half.  This means that we are now qualified.  We are now holy enough, righteous enough, worthy enough, esteemed enough, and honored enough to approach God.  No more veil, no more requirements such as washing the feet and hands for cleanliness because we were made spotless by the blood of the lamb.  No more blood sacrifices are required, because Jesus was our sacrifice.  No more justification by keeping the law is required, because Jesus became our justification.

Since Jesus’s death qualified us, God now calls us, and then justifies us (Romans 8:30).  Then, after he justifies us, he glorifies us as a royal priesthood, a spotless bride.  How does God justify us?  He calls things that appear to be not as though they are.  We see our failures, but he shows us our justification.  Just as one might justify a child’s behavior to someone, God justifies our behaviors to us.  He gives us faith.  So why do we need to be justified if we are already qualified?  We are not really justified until we know that we are justified.  We are qualified, but unless we believe that we are qualified, its as if we aren’t because the righteous will live by faith (Romans 1:17).

What have we been qualified for exactly?  For heaven, for life.  To live justified, redeemed, and forgiven.  To have unhindered intimacy with our creator who now dwells among us, in the spirit of our hearts, and throughout our lives.  To many he calls for them to join with him, but sadly they refuse.  Most don’t know that they had been qualified.  Some still erroneously think that Christianity is just for the weak, deceived, radical, or the perfect.  Jesus Christ gave his life so that yours can be saved, through faith.  Those who choose to live without Christ are also choosing to die without Christ.  We will live by what we believe, and we will die according to what we believe as well.

If you say that Jesus Christ is Lord, and you truly believe that  he was risen from the dead, then you will be saved (Romans 10:9).  Why do we have to say it if we want to be saved?  Because that means that you truly believe, because from the abundance of your heart, your mouth speaks (Luke 6:45).  He has qualified us, do  you believe?

Those who do truly believe can now “give joyful thanks to the father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light” (Colossians 1:12 NKJV).  Thank you God for sending us Jesus, who was your Son, to qualify us to also be your sons and to enjoy all of your inheritance.  I believe!  Thank you Jesus for dying for us.  I praise you God.  Amen.

Demonic Whispers

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Most people who don’t know the truth believe that our mental disorders are medical diseases.  Science has proven that there are certain brain chemistry changes in people with diverse mental diseases.  This helps aid the development of medication to help stabilize the nerve synapses and the hormone levels.  Being a medical professional myself, I advocate taking medication to help treat all of our illnesses.

Yet, as a Holy Spirit filled Christian who has been taught a lot about the unseen realm of the supernatural, which is confirmed by the Holy Bible, I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that science will never trump God’s truth.  As a matter of fact, science only evolves to finally conclude the ultimate truth, which is the Holy word of God.

According to the word of God which yes was written over a thousand years ago, inspired by the Holy Spirit, we are taught that the earth that we see, is built on the word of God.  The earth manifests God’s truth, it will never dispel it.  And in the areas where it has not yet evolved, it is temporarily ignorant.  One truth that I have found to prove that is the development of CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy which is probably the most effective behavioral modification program that teaches us to learn how to change our behaviors by first changing our thoughts, all the while it has been written in the ancient Holy Bible that we are to place our thoughts on things above.

As we dig into the bible and are enlightened through the power of the Holy Spirit (by the way, if you have never been saved you will not likely experience this enlightenment, because with salvation comes the Holy Spirit who teaches us the truth by the word of God, you can be a bible scholar and still not know the truth), we learn some valuable lessons about spiritual warfare.  We are told that our battle is not with flesh and blood, but with spiritual powers and wickedness in high places (Ephesians 6:12).  The real truth of the matter is that what we see from a science lab is a physical manifestation of a spiritual transformation.

All those low things that plague us, anxious thoughts, feelings of hopelessness and suicide, feelings of low self-worth, lust, pride.. the list is endless are geared by demonic whispers.  We have believed those whispers, embracing them as our own tainted thoughts.  I believe that taking medication and going to counseling is a worldly way of trying to resolve a spiritual issue.  Whereas, if we deal with the demonic stronghold behind those whispers, the cause of the psychological wound stops.

I had experienced depression with suicidal ideations since childhood.  When I was a young adult I was diagnosed with some mood and anxiety disorders and given medication to take.  The doctor told me that it would only get worse as I aged and that I would likely end up being hospitalized for it.  I would take the medication, stop the medication, take it, stop it.  At one point I accepted that I would always be dependent on psychotropic medications for the rest of my life, and that having major depression would always be my disability in life.  Then God started exposing the truth to me, he brought many anointed prophets into my life to pray for me, and then Satan was exposed and I was delivered from that spiritual bondage.  I can truly say that I am no longer oppressed or depressed.  I just don’t have that problem anymore.  Through God’s intervention, the lie of depression was exposed, the root cause being exposed then with that truth and prayer that issue was resolved.  I’d been healed, hallelujah.  Do I still have bad days?  Sure.  Do I get down sometimes?  Yes.  Though I would never call it depression because it isn’t like that anymore, maybe sad or discouraged.  Those feelings are normal, but depression, major depression, and the like are not.

There is so much more to say on this topic but I’ll conclude this topic for now and pick it back up another day as I’m led.  What thoughts are you experiencing today that have you anxious, confused, discouraged, depressed, hopeless, irritated?  Any that you are aware of?  You think they are really your thoughts, but are they really?

Lord, please expose the enemy and guide us into all the truth so that we can be freed from captivity.  Thank You God.  Amen.

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