Just Relax

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“Just relax”, is the advice that a few close friends have been saying to me.  How true it is that while we are trying to figure out the solutions to our many problems, that relaxing is really the solution that we seek.  We all really just want to rest, yet we think that worrying and rushing will bring us there.  Worry never brings rest.

There are many ways to find relaxation though.  One way to gain the ability to relax is by way of accomplishment.  Sometimes we are stressed because we have something pressing us that we want to accomplish.  This is actually a good anxiety in a way because it can be used to motivate us.  Sometimes I get chores done only because the anxiety that begins to build up and cause me to feel bad if I don’t.  These types of burdens can really weigh us down until we deal with them.  When we understand that the only way to bring relaxation under this kind of stress is through accomplishment, then we can seek to figure out how we can overcome.  When we have accomplishment, then we can have rest.

What about the times when we are unable to reach accomplishment though?  Like, what happens when accomplishing something is beyond our control?  Yet, the burden to overcome lingers there and we try to press forward, yet we just don’t have the resources?  What then?  Many of us encounter such barriers that prevent us from reaching that place of relaxation and rest that we seek.  These burdens seem to bring about shame, dishonor, and fear.  Sometimes it can lead to anger, frustration, and impatience.  Humility, trust, and patience are what the burdens are meant for.  Just as God saw that humans could accomplish anything when they worked together as they built the tower of Babel, and he stretched out his mighty hand and frustrated their plans, sometimes he frustrates our plans.  The reason being that the trials and testings of the life force us to slow down, otherwise we might spend all of our time and energy building something that really is futile after its all said and down.  The Tower of Babel was meant to reach heaven, however all that would had happened is that it would have reached high enough to take their breath away, but they would have never reached heaven no matter how hard they tried.  Sometimes it is what we are reaching for that will defeat God’s given purpose for our lives.  Maybe it is a God given purpose we are striving for, but God allows us to be slow downed so that we can develop some character as we wait.  “It is in the waiting”, God says.  It is in the waiting that we get strong and gain necessary perspective.

“You just need to relax”, they say.  I have been told this multiple times, yet I keep forgetting and continue to need to be reminded of it again because I keep getting ahead of God.  I was given a prophesy years ago by the pastor’s wife, who told me that God would grow me up fast, but to not get ahead of him.  Since she had told me this, I have always ran ahead of him.  I hate waiting.  Yet, running ahead is like racing to get to a red light or stop sign.  That stop sign comes whether we expect it or not, whether we like it or accept it, it comes.  Racing to come to a stop sign won’t change the pace of our distance, rather it just influences our restfulness.  Racing to get anything done is not restful.  We must run our race with endurance and assurance that as we do what God has asked us to do, God will bring us to the finish line, that this is not a race of quickness, but it is a race that needs to be finished.

Waiting on God is an art that leads to resting.  When we race ahead at high speed, it is because we are afraid we wont finish.  When we wait on God, and enter into his rest by not worrying about what we don’t know, and not focus on the finish line so much that we get frustrated and fixated on the reward more than the creator, then we slow down to the speed that will ensure that we will finish.  We rest because we have faith and believe that God is in charge and his plans are the best for us.  God, thank you for always being patient and reminding us of your truth, and your willingness to repeat yourself over and over again.  When we believe and obey, we enter his rest.

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Like a Child

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Every once in a while I might go about my day and not feel God’s presence.  This is alarming to me.  Not that this is a new experience, and it surely is an experience that most Christians complain about at one time or another, however lately I’ve been reading in the old testament about how severely God had punished his children when they angered him.  Often times this resulted in deaths.  How many times had I transgressed knowingly against my God and still lived?  So when I am reading about God’s wrath and I don’t sense his presence I start to wonder, why God?  What did I do?  Is it because I was too harsh on my kids today?  Was it because I ate too much food today?  Was it because of… something I did or did not do Lord?  So I have asked him, and last night he responded with his tender counsel, he told me that he considers me like a child.  He told me that just as I am working to take care of my own children, seeking to take care of their needs even when they have not asked me, but just because I care about them and want them to be happy, that he is doing the same thing for me.  He reminded me of my little children who trespass against my rules every single day, and how I have to correct them, however I would never abandon them or forsake them, but rather their failures is to be expected.  This entire time as a grown woman who is parenting her own children the best way that she is able to, is still but a little infant in the eyes of God.  Now since he had shown me how he sees me, and how patient and kind he is with me, I also am convicted that I need to treat my little ones with the same mercy and patience that my heavenly father has shown me.  Thank you my heavenly Father or your tender counsel for not leaving me orphaned.

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The Fear of the Lord

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The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Proverbs 9:10).  In my spiritual journey I have come to the knowledge of many types of fears.  I have had fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of exposure, fear of dying and going to hell- oh but wait, that is not the fear of the Lord.  That is called a Spirit of fear and condemnation which is a demon (2 Timothy 1:7).  There are all kinds of demonic fears that lead us to anxiety and torment.  There are religious spirits that do as we were told not to do in Galatians 3, and that is to attempt to walk out this Christian life style, that first began in faith by the Spirit, now in the flesh (Galatians 3:10-11).  That is also rooted in the spirit of fear and condemnation, and it is a righteousness gained by flesh with a “self-righteous” stamp of approval on it.  There is a curse that comes to those who try to gain acceptance or admittance into the Kingdom of heaven through keeping the law, because it says that those who are relying on the law for approval are under a curse, and that they must keep the entire law if they are to succeed.  This is where the demonic stronghold of fear comes in, that leads to fruits contrary to the fruit of the Holy Spirit, which is joy, peace, and true righteousness.  Instead this person produces pride, judgment, and a yo-yo yoke of approval from the Lord because they are only in peace when they are strong in their flesh, all the while the word tells us that it isn’t until we have become weak that we are strong (2 Corinthians 12:10).  The truth is that our strength isn’t of us at all, and it has absolutely nothing to do with us.  It has been and ever will be only found in God’s mercy and grace, because it was bought by the Christ dying on the cross.  Then we have the true fear of the Lord, which in reality isn’t fear at all, making the religious fearful (1 John 4:18).  This fear understands that it is free to do whatever it wants, but it knows that the only true way is God’s.  That is the fear of the Lord.  It doesn’t cause anxiety.  It doesn’t torment us with the kingdom of hell dangling before our eyes as our lot the moment we mess us.  Rather, it says that I don’t want to displease God.  I want to do right by him.  He will never force me to do right by him, and I have the responsibility of choice.  What will I chose today?  It is the understanding that only I can mess things up by making the wrong choice.  The consequence being that I might miss out on the promise that was meant to be enjoyed.  I don’t want to work and sweat on the land of desert and only gain a thistle.  I want to enter into the green land full of milk and honey where I can find rest.  That is what the fear of the Lord is.  It is one that sees that we only have one life to live, and what we risk is missing out on the best.  It is missing out on the opportunity to fellowship with the master of the universe, and to lose my soul in the process.  It is trying to gain the world, but losing my soul.  Fearing God is the beginning of wisdom.  Fearing God means that we truly believe in him and that we act on it.  It is our faith that will make us or break us in the end.  If we know what is right and at the end of the day do not do it, then by our own conscience we will stand condemned.  It is not necessarily God who will do it.  We will do it to ourselves.  I think the biggest punishment will be seeing the God we turned away from with complete knowledge, and understanding in fullness how bad we failed.  It will be our regret.  This is the fear of the Lord that is where all wisdom begins.

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Unworthy

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I am reminded today of how unworthy we are.  The Lord knew we were unworthy, so he died for us in order to fill in the gap for us.  First we have the law, man’s transgression against the law, separation from God, and then came Jesus.  He became sin, chastised and punished, so that we can be reconciled.  He knew we were unworthy.  He loved us despite our unworthiness.  Now we have Christian brothers and sisters casting stones at each other, they are saying, “you are unworthy of me!  You are unworthy of my time, of my energy, you are a leech upon my life.  You do not treat me with respect.  Depart from me, you are unworthy!”  They say these things because people generally are unworthy, but those casting judgments are not any better.  The Lord is showing me as I seek him about being rejected by friends who have said to themselves that I am unworthy.  I said something they didn’t like, so now I’m unworthy.  When we say a person is unworthy, we are saying to them, “you are not good enough for me, you do not measure up.  You do not deserve my attention or my love.  Depart from me”.  This has happened so much that it is evident that the Lord has a lesson in it.  So I asked him why, he told me that his people don’t know how to forgive.  They have their own expectations of what is the right way, as a matter of fact a friend shared with me a scripture in Proverbs where it says that every man thinks that they are right in their own eyes (Proverbs 21:2), but their way is not right when they judge others as unworthy.  That is the truth.  What is worse is that as I have sought the Lord in how to deal with these people who are now unworthy of my effort, in my own spiritual pride and feelings of rejection I want to move on and wipe the dust from my feet, but Jesus said, “no, forgive them”.  I told him that these people don’t even want anything to do with me, why should I pray for them to change their hearts.  He told me that it was wrong for them to settle in their hearts to not forgive, and that their rejection of me didn’t mean that I was unworthy, it meant that their judgement was wrong, and that there is no person who I am going to have a relationship with who I won’t at some point in time have to walk in forgiveness.  Jesus was surrounded by people.  He had devoted disciples, and he also had many more followers and admirers, yet when push came to shove, he was truly alone.  They didn’t love him because they were good people, rather they loved him because he first loved them and had something to give them.  He had a little piece of God in him.  Jesus couldn’t count on a single one of them to truly love in at the end.  When he hung on that cross, even God turned his face from him.  He was utterly alone.  We are to love people because they need it, not because they are worthy.  We are to forgive people because they need it, not because they are worthy.  In the end it isn’t about who was right or who was wrong.  In the end we are all imperfect.  In the end, what will matter is that we loved and that we are loved by the only one who ever truly loved us in the first place.  God is the one who is worthy.  Even Jesus was his design and his gift to us.  God gave him up.  It is time that we believers start showing the world a little piece of Jesus.  It is time that we start seeking deliverance from unforgiveness.  It is time that we rid the words “unworthy” from our vocabulary unless we are discussing our own worth while bowing at God’s feet.  It is time that we see that there is no person who is worthy, and at the same time every person is worthy because Jesus said he was.  If Jesus said that person was worthy, God forbid I ever say that a person is unworthy again.  Lord Jesus, please help us get this revelation.  Please help us have genuine love. Thank you for making us worthy even though we were not.  Thank you for loving everyone God.  We are worthy now because you said it, though we are all unworthy.

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Set A Fire

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Dear Lord,

Set a fire in every person’s soul.  Burn away the chaff, expose the lies, show us who you are so that we will see you in Spirit and in Truth.  Show us your love.  Show us your face.  Let your truth burn deep within our souls.  Set my heart on fire.  I want all that is not of you to burn away.  Heal my hurts, bind up my wounds.  Make what is old pass away, that I will come from the fire brand new.  I want to be who you made me to be.  Consume my heart and my life Lord.  Let only your will be what is left.  Cause my entire life to be worship to you.  Let everything within me glorify you always, my husband, my King, My God.  Come Holy Fire.  Thank you loving God.  Amen.

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Dear Lord

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You have told me this week that the reason my plan failed is because I didn’t listen to you in the first place, and rather than relying on you I was afraid and relied on man. No more by your grace. You keep moving me to place all my cares in your hands, and also to make you my portion and my source . Thank you holy God. Please help my book and my writings bring you glory and touch lives as you can use it the best. Your word is so rich with life that it only takes a small drop to infect and save a life. By the leading of your spirit I really just wanted to honor and praise you. You are the best lover, you care about souls. You also work to ensure that every soul is redeemed dear Savior and God allows you to create every story into a timeless, endless story. I am blessed beyond measure because im redeemed. 💖I love you Lord. Thank you for being you. Be blessed today. Amen.

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I Never Knew You

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The word Knew here is related to a person who walks in the light compared to a person walking in the darkness.  The difference between a person who walks in the light verses the darkness is a person who is open, forthcoming and true.  You see, when we are not forthcoming with our answers to ourselves and to God then we become one who is deceived. The word describes a light that is shining in the darkness.  A light is illuminating, it exposes all the things that are hidden by a cover of darkness. When the light is turned on, then we can see what is really in the room. When we can see what is in the room then we can see clearly whether the objects are clean or something useful, or old rubbish that needs to be thrown away.  We can find our belongings, our clothing, the tools that we need to function and live in life. It would be impossible to clean our room of impurities if you cannot see the true cleanliness of an object in the darkness. You could try to cleanse it in the water by touch, and rub it with your hands or a towel and then think it is clean, until you turn on the light and discover that it is not.  The Lord says to you, “look, I know that you have dirty objects in your room, I’m not here to judge but rather to cleanse your room, however I am unable to help you become clean unless you allow me to turn on a light”. Because of our shame we try to hide our dirty objects in the dark, but to make ourselves feel clean we might go into a corner of the room and rub an object with a hand towel and call it good, so that we can ease our conscience and so that the father of lights, who is God the creator who is clean and pure won’t be able to see just how dirty the object is.  The deceptive cleansing can be likened to one who says a quick prayer at bedtime or reads a chapter out of the bible every now and then so that they can feel holy, however they never truly become clean because, they refuse to turn on the light so that they themselves can properly face the dirt in their home and deal with it, although the bible says that we cannot cleanse ourselves sufficiently. It is not our responsibility to cleanse ourselves because God said that he would do that for us, all that he asks is that we turn on the lights so that both you and him can see the needs properly, and then he himself will cleanse your dirty home.  The dirty home I am referring to is the room in your heart where old habits, mistakes, ugly behaviors and secrets reside. If we say that we don’t have dirt in our hearts, if we say that we don’t have sin, then we lie and there is no light in us. We must choose to open the door and turn on the light, exposing the contents to God and confess that we have a problem if we are ever to have fellowship with him, because he is light, and in him there is no darkness. This light is likened to the pureness as far as motives and true righteousness is concerned. When we remain in the dark, we do not reside with God. If we ever want to walk with God and enter into his kingdom of light, we must first step into the light and abandon the lies.  You see, a person who says that they know God, while never turning on the light, despite how many scriptures that they can recite or how well they can teach a bible lesson or the miracles they might be able to perform, the Lord will address their claim to be his disciple on judgement day and say to him, “depart from me, I never knew you”, because that deceived man or woman thought that their vain attempts at cleansing themselves while never exposing the contents of their room to God who only dwells in the light, the Lord will be accurate to say that he never knew him because he dwelled in darkness, and not in the light so the Lord never saw him he was hidden from his sight. Make no mistake, if you are to be saved, you must be real about everything before the father of lights.  

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5 This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. 6 If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

We will say to him, “but I prophesied in your name, I cast demons out in your name”, but here’s a deeper look at this let us get this:

We have a front that we are presenting to him, how we want to be seen by him, but that is not who we really are on the inside, and when he looks at you he wants to see the inside, and because you won’t allow him to see the whole truth, then the “you” you hope he’ll see is not who you truly are and he will not ever truly know you.  Do you get it?

Selah, let us think about this