Last year I had been set free from many fears, and also many toxic people. The Lord had given me a word from psalm 34:19 promising me that he would deliver me from all that troubled me. Then I saw a vision of him coming to me as a consuming fire and when he came upon me it was almost too much to bear, to be so close to his holy anger, but it was due to having a revelation of his love that I could endure. I also knew that his consuming fire would burn away all that caused me pain. I knew that anyone who caused me problems would regret it. This work that he began with me began from within me. God had began giving me revelations of how he saw my deepest thoughts and feelings and that those very things were what he cared about. I began to understand this past year how much God genuinely cares about us. This is where faith comes from. This is what Jesus spoke of when he told us not to be afraid or anxious about anything and then he spoke about the birds in the air and the lillies in the field, how neither of those creations strive for anything yet God still cares for them. This is the understanding that Jesus had when he touched people and they got healed. This was the love for people that he had when he died for them and forgave them. So I also experienced much rejection this past year from even spirit filled friends who even though were anointed and favored, also had their flaws. God showed me that again those who know him also stumble and fail. He removed everyone from my life who was unhealthy for me, whether they were gossiping about me or they were discouraging to me in some shape or form. I had identify with the scripture that said that God can make the rocks praise him, well he can also bring up the right friends from those rocks. The most impactful lesson I learned was to sit at Jesus feet and not rely on opinions of someone else, or on projects or anything else other than the words from his mouth to feed me. I was so weighed down by the words, thoughts, and opinions of other people that it was not making God happy. Even well meaning people, and he led me to just unfriend many and at the moment it was a little scary but later I felt the relief and understood even more why it was necessary. I learned about soul ties and how soul ties with anything or anybody outside the Lord’s guidance can truly weigh on the soul. I had an unhealthy relationship with a Christian man who looked good on paper in some ways but who was hurting me with his head games and it was poison for me. I finally let him go. Then I met my soul mate. We are courting and I am so happy to have met the man who God intended for me to be with. Yesterday as I prayed to the Lord about recent mistakes I had made he spoke to me and said, forget the former things. Forget the past mistakes you make. Forget the past ways of thinking and being and believing. Sometimes we are not called to figure out or fix but to let go and embrace God’s newness of life and his great mercy. Amen he has great things in store for me. I also submitted my first book for publishing and I was supposed to have my first copies by now. I expected them in November but I still don’t have them yet. I suppose I wasn’t meant to publish it until this year. I’m working on my second book as well.
So many thoughts cross my mind that I would prefer not be there. I waste so much time focusing on things that I ought not to. God loves us so much that he has literally stepped into our homes (no matter how messy or unlovely they are), and has come down to reason with us on our level (even though we are as dumb as sheep), and made a home with us who seek him in truth. This is Love! So even when my mind strays and I have thoughts I wish I hadn’t, and I focus on cares I shouldn’t, and with every mistake I make- God has me covered! Psalms 91:1 explains to us that those who dwell in the shelter of the most high, will rest in the shadow of the almighty. He’s got you covered! You can rest! Have peace! For his love shelters me and makes me complete. I have no want for anything (Psalm 23:1) for the Lord is my Shepherd! He’s got you covered, hallelujah you are so good to us God. Thank you for loving me, my Savior and my Lord! My prince of peace. I will surely sing of your love forever for your love in unending.
I had a dream this morning that I was tempted and eager to give into that temptation. As a matter of fact I had made a choice to give in, but while preparing to give in to the lusts of the flesh, I briefly looked to God and prayed. What happened next was that he closed the doors. I could have pushed them open and forced the sin, but instead I went with it and accepted that God looked out for me and prevented me from sinning. While laying in bed awake afterwards I was feeling the weight of my flesh desires verses my knowledge of what is right. I hate the idea of is standing before God after I had knowingly given into sin, especially after all that he has done for me, such as giving me the gift of knowledge and many mercies. How can I not stand there condemned? I would accuse myself! I don’t need Satan to accuse me. Usually scenarios like what happened in my dream adds to my anxiety because I know better, yet I choose to engage in that temptation anyways. But, in my dream God delivered me. God has forgiven me. I also think of all the people who I judged because they gave into their weaknesses and knowingly sinned against me or a loved one. Here’s a difficult concept for some people to accept, God knows we are evil in our flesh nature, and he has chosen to forgive us. Jesus died so that when I sin, it can be forgiven. Does that mean that I or anyone should knowingly engage in sin? No, we should not knowingly engage in sins, yet there are times when we will. If it was not for his forgiveness, great love, and mercy then who could stand? No one could stand. I am just not good enough. No one is good enough. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. This is reason to praise God. He loved us enough that while we were sinners he died for us. Lord, please help me remember that forgiveness is necessary in relationships even when the other person lets us down, and that love covers a multitude of sins. Thank you for reminding me that you love me despite my temptations and failures. It is my desire that I won’t fail anymore. Help me be stronger than I am, yet I am grateful that without your grace I cannot succeed. It is because you love me and forgive me that I am able to stand. Deliver me from evil, and from temptations. Lift up my feet so that I will soar above the trials and not hit my feet on the stones. I am righteous because you have loved me and because I said no even though I could have. You want me to remember that. I was tempted, but when you made a way out, I took it. Thank you for making a way out. Thank you for encouraging me that before your site and because of your great wisdom, I am righteous. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. Amen. What the Lord is telling me this morning is that this is spiritual warfare, and that no weapon formed against me will prosper. Hallelujah!
“Just relax”, is the advice that a few close friends have been saying to me. How true it is that while we are trying to figure out the solutions to our many problems, that relaxing is really the solution that we seek. We all really just want to rest, yet we think that worrying and rushing will bring us there. Worry never brings rest.
There are many ways to find relaxation though. One way to gain the ability to relax is by way of accomplishment. Sometimes we are stressed because we have something pressing us that we want to accomplish. This is actually a good anxiety in a way because it can be used to motivate us. Sometimes I get chores done only because the anxiety that begins to build up and cause me to feel bad if I don’t. These types of burdens can really weigh us down until we deal with them. When we understand that the only way to bring relaxation under this kind of stress is through accomplishment, then we can seek to figure out how we can overcome. When we have accomplishment, then we can have rest.
What about the times when we are unable to reach accomplishment though? Like, what happens when accomplishing something is beyond our control? Yet, the burden to overcome lingers there and we try to press forward, yet we just don’t have the resources? What then? Many of us encounter such barriers that prevent us from reaching that place of relaxation and rest that we seek. These burdens seem to bring about shame, dishonor, and fear. Sometimes it can lead to anger, frustration, and impatience. Humility, trust, and patience are what the burdens are meant for. Just as God saw that humans could accomplish anything when they worked together as they built the tower of Babel, and he stretched out his mighty hand and frustrated their plans, sometimes he frustrates our plans. The reason being that the trials and testings of the life force us to slow down, otherwise we might spend all of our time and energy building something that really is futile after its all said and down. The Tower of Babel was meant to reach heaven, however all that would had happened is that it would have reached high enough to take their breath away, but they would have never reached heaven no matter how hard they tried. Sometimes it is what we are reaching for that will defeat God’s given purpose for our lives. Maybe it is a God given purpose we are striving for, but God allows us to be slow downed so that we can develop some character as we wait. “It is in the waiting”, God says. It is in the waiting that we get strong and gain necessary perspective.
“You just need to relax”, they say. I have been told this multiple times, yet I keep forgetting and continue to need to be reminded of it again because I keep getting ahead of God. I was given a prophesy years ago by the pastor’s wife, who told me that God would grow me up fast, but to not get ahead of him. Since she had told me this, I have always ran ahead of him. I hate waiting. Yet, running ahead is like racing to get to a red light or stop sign. That stop sign comes whether we expect it or not, whether we like it or accept it, it comes. Racing to come to a stop sign won’t change the pace of our distance, rather it just influences our restfulness. Racing to get anything done is not restful. We must run our race with endurance and assurance that as we do what God has asked us to do, God will bring us to the finish line, that this is not a race of quickness, but it is a race that needs to be finished.
Waiting on God is an art that leads to resting. When we race ahead at high speed, it is because we are afraid we wont finish. When we wait on God, and enter into his rest by not worrying about what we don’t know, and not focus on the finish line so much that we get frustrated and fixated on the reward more than the creator, then we slow down to the speed that will ensure that we will finish. We rest because we have faith and believe that God is in charge and his plans are the best for us. God, thank you for always being patient and reminding us of your truth, and your willingness to repeat yourself over and over again. When we believe and obey, we enter his rest.
It is true that our burdens are too much. We were created to have and enjoy our lives, and our curse was to have to work for it. We were created to have our every need provided for. Rams have indwelt abilities to withstand headbutts, but we do not have an indwelt ability to carry our own burdens. These burdens are too much. When we think about what our burdens cost us, why not cast our cares on Jesus, who died for us? He said, “come to me all you who are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest, cast your cares upon me, because I care for you”. Part of the curse of death is having to carry our burdens alone. These burdens are too much. When we turn to God with our cares, he is able to give us rest for our tired bones. Thank you Lord for relieving my cares and for taking care of everything that concerns me. Please remind us all that you are near, not far away. Remind us that we are not meant to carry our burdens alone, but that we can cast those cares upon you and that as we do you keep us safe. Help us have rest. Amen
Isaiah 37:35 KJV “ For I will defend this city to save it for mine own sake, and for my servant David’s sake”
Psalm 105:15 KJV “Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm”
Many times the Lord had revealed to me how he punished a person who at one time or another had stood against me. He always defends his anointed, in his own way and in his own time. He had given me revelation knowledge maybe immediately after the person spoke or stood against me, or way after it had occurred which was always affirmed by its manifestation.
So why will God do this for me or another? Is it because I am special or that he respects me over another? No. I am not better than anyone else, I am weak and human. Rather, it is because I am anointed with his Spirit, and it is for his names sake that he defends his anointed ones.
His word makes it clear that he defends the weak, first of all. Secondly, he defends what is right, for he leads us on paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. When an anointed man or woman of God is walking under the inspiration of his Holy Spirit, then whoever offends that person is offending God himself, for whatsoever a person does to his anointed ones they also do to him.
God must defend his anointed ones for righteousness sake. Hebrews chapter 12 makes it clear that God will punish those who he loves, so when a person acts out of line, or mindlessly speaks curses and is unjust in their dealings, then they are standing against the law, and they are standing against what is right, and God is righteousness himself. He also defends and protects his bride, because he is a faithful husband, and we who love him are in covenant with him, we are his bride.
God even corrects other anointed men and women who stand against me when they are out of line, because what is wrong is wrong, and what is right is right. God’s correction will surely come, but many will not be corrected because of their pride. This is not right. Therefore, it is necessary that in order for that person who is corrected, correctly, by God that they should receive it. Don’t harden your heart, rather humble yourselves. Even I am corrected from time to time when it is right.
Those who are anointed by God should be in step with God. They should maintain a humble and malleable attitude at all times, because humility is the mark of a true servant of God, not pride. The good news is that grief might last for a night, but joy will certainly come in the morning, and those who are corrected by the Lord’s rebuke will reap a harvest of righteousness (Hebrews 12:11).
If you earnestly seek the Lord and earnestly open your heart to his correction, then he will lift you high and honor you with long life. Dear ones you anointed ones need not ever fear for God will defend you for his names sake. This is why I don’t bother defending myself, because I know God will do it. I know that those who speak against me without righteous heart motives will be dealt with according to God’s name, especially when it is against him. I don’t fret, they are setting themselves up for their own downfalls, I rest secure Hallelujah. Thank you Abba Father for defending me. Your love is fierce and your justice sentence is always right. You are glorious. I praise you. Amen.
God is a good father. We know this in theory, but do we know it in heart? I love how personal God makes things for me to comprehend. He will do this for anyone who seeks to know him and asks him for help. I rely on him to get through my day, as I am weak and he is my strength, and he makes me strong for sure by comforting me and counseling me. It is his faith. We say with our mouths that God will protect us, but do we believe? We sing his praises in the church chair or pew, but do we then walk away and believe he is going to do evil things to us if we make even the slightest mistake? If we truly believe that he is good as we sing about when we praise him, then why are we afraid? The Lord wants to give you a deep, personal revelation of his love. He is not just good to a few, he is good to all, it is the lack of faith that keeps us from seeing it. Lord, open our eyes. Heal our hearts. Give us rest and peace today. Open our eyes so that we can see you. Give us deep penetration today, not because we deserve it, but because you are good. Here is what he told me, and it is true for us all. He said, if you who are evil (yes, all humans have evil in them aka flesh) know how to do good things for your children…… this means that if we consider the most evil person, even they know how to bless a person… so if we who are naturally evil, know how to do good for our children, then how much more will he, GOD, who made us, and who is naturally good and loving, know how to do good things for his children? God said, “I created good.. who do you think first came up with the idea of surprises and blessing a person’s socks off??” So we can praise him for the good he will do, even though we don’t know what the good thing is yet, just because we know that we will be faithful to give us all good things in the name of Jesus. Amen.
One of my good friends had been saying the same thing over the months, they said, “when our situations settle, everything will fall into place”. I knew exactly what that meant. It means that God has a plan and when all the situations work out, then the pieces that we have been trying to find the proper place for will suddenly fall into place. I have spent so much time trying to force pieces into place, not being content until the puzzle was solved, however being willing to ensure that this occurred even if the final image was bent, torn, and close to the correct size but not right after all. That is called impatience. That is called fear. Fear of not having a completed puzzle, and fear that God will leave me to figure it out on my own. Even though this is something I couldn’t consciously comprehend, that is what was beneath the surface festering, causing me to put together and try to force together pieces of the puzzle that were not meant to fit. This friend also once said to me, “don’t force anything!” That wisdom has never left my mind, and it has since lingered and guided the path that I have been taking since than. So, what will the final outcome be? The truth is that none of know what we will end up being, or what God has in store for us. We couldn’t even fathom or imagine it, the bible tells us this. All we have to do is trust in God. We just need to have a relationship with him, talk to him, and seek him in earnest. Do our best to please him as a wife would do for her husband, a Son for his Father, A daughter for her mother, a husband for his bride, though that is what we are to Jesus. Jesus never got to have a bride. I got to thinking one day that maybe Jesus would have loved a bride. Maybe he would have loved Mary Magdalene or someone else, and maybe that was the need that God intended to satisfy him with and made the church his bride. Maybe that was Jesus secret prize for faithfulness. I am not pretending that that is what the bible said, rather it is just a guess because that is the way God is. He intends on giving us back far more than we could ever expect or give him in return. We are his bride. We are his pride and joy, and our completeness is his eternal joy. That is what is his prize, to see us truly fulfilled. That is what love is. So for this reason we can trust that everything is meant to fall into place for us. It surely will.
I said goodbye so many times. Now I find my mind still wonders to him. This time I’m reminded as to why I keep saying goodbye. When it is not right, it just is not right, no matter how much we had want it to be right. Be brave enough to say goodbye. God makes all things right. God is always right. Just let him go, and this time, mean it when you say goodbye. God has bigger plans for the both of you. This time, don’t think about what could’ve been, or even what should have been, though what should have been was genuine love. It doesn’t make either of you wrong, it means that you are now growing up. Be brave enough to say goodbye. Saying goodbye doesn’t mean you hate each other, it means that you love each other by doing what is best for the other. People talk of toxic people and toxic love, yet is there one person who is truly better than another? We all have our flaws and failures, we all screw up in one way or another. It means that you have different callings, and gifts that are unique to your own life and if you have a conflict of interest, you will always be at odds. Take your time and chose right before you say I do. Chose to love each other and if you cannot give yourself up for the other than allow them to go. Be brave and say goodbye.
God has a plan. When we fret about the direction our life is going, it is because we are not resting in God. Resting means that we trust him. When we make dumb decisions about our finances and relationships, it is because we are trying to drive the car called life, when all along God is the one who directs our paths. He has a plan. Today I have peace as I trust in him. It doesn’t mean that I know what tomorrow will bring, he says that men have not seen what he has planned, but I do know by faith that those are all good plans and that all things will work for my good. Thank you God for holding my life in the palm of your hands and for giving me your light. Please lead me on the path that leads me on paths of righteousness. I am yours.