Last year I had been set free from many fears, and also many toxic people. The Lord had given me a word from psalm 34:19 promising me that he would deliver me from all that troubled me. Then I saw a vision of him coming to me as a consuming fire and when he came upon me it was almost too much to bear, to be so close to his holy anger, but it was due to having a revelation of his love that I could endure. I also knew that his consuming fire would burn away all that caused me pain. I knew that anyone who caused me problems would regret it. This work that he began with me began from within me. God had began giving me revelations of how he saw my deepest thoughts and feelings and that those very things were what he cared about. I began to understand this past year how much God genuinely cares about us. This is where faith comes from. This is what Jesus spoke of when he told us not to be afraid or anxious about anything and then he spoke about the birds in the air and the lillies in the field, how neither of those creations strive for anything yet God still cares for them. This is the understanding that Jesus had when he touched people and they got healed. This was the love for people that he had when he died for them and forgave them. So I also experienced much rejection this past year from even spirit filled friends who even though were anointed and favored, also had their flaws. God showed me that again those who know him also stumble and fail. He removed everyone from my life who was unhealthy for me, whether they were gossiping about me or they were discouraging to me in some shape or form. I had identify with the scripture that said that God can make the rocks praise him, well he can also bring up the right friends from those rocks. The most impactful lesson I learned was to sit at Jesus feet and not rely on opinions of someone else, or on projects or anything else other than the words from his mouth to feed me. I was so weighed down by the words, thoughts, and opinions of other people that it was not making God happy. Even well meaning people, and he led me to just unfriend many and at the moment it was a little scary but later I felt the relief and understood even more why it was necessary. I learned about soul ties and how soul ties with anything or anybody outside the Lord’s guidance can truly weigh on the soul. I had an unhealthy relationship with a Christian man who looked good on paper in some ways but who was hurting me with his head games and it was poison for me. I finally let him go. Then I met my soul mate. We are courting and I am so happy to have met the man who God intended for me to be with. Yesterday as I prayed to the Lord about recent mistakes I had made he spoke to me and said, forget the former things. Forget the past mistakes you make. Forget the past ways of thinking and being and believing. Sometimes we are not called to figure out or fix but to let go and embrace God’s newness of life and his great mercy. Amen he has great things in store for me. I also submitted my first book for publishing and I was supposed to have my first copies by now. I expected them in November but I still don’t have them yet. I suppose I wasn’t meant to publish it until this year. I’m working on my second book as well.
I had waited for someone to care. Yet Jesus was there, and he cared. I believe that most people at least one time in their life look for and wait for others to truly care. Sometimes we are blessed with those who care, but other times it feels as if no one cares. Jesus always cared. Jesus always cares. Jesus is God in the flesh, God’s son, and the word that was with God from the beginning, and was God per the books of John and 1 John. When people care life is good, but what about when they don’t care? Jesus always cares, and he’s always cared. We were not made on accident, as a matter of fact we are considered the most valuable creations in existence. I was not an accident and you were not an accident. Jesus had your name on his heart when he hung on the cross. The bible tells us that it was for the joy that was set before him that he endured the cross and its shame. It was because of the shame you endured, so that someone could literally say that he has been there. You were never alone. You are still not alone. There is always hope as long as today is called today, and it is when we have come to the end of hope in this life that we are in a position to truly gain life. Jesus said blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of God. It was for the lost, the sinner, the sick, the poor, the fatherless, the rejected, the hated, the proud, the caring, the mother, brother, lover it was for us all that Jesus came to this earth, that his Father, our creator sent him to stand in the gap and become sin, to become shame, to become sick, to become rejected, and afflicted and poor, to be bruised so that we will know that someone cared, and has been there. When Jesus cared, he really cared. He didn’t just say it with a smile and vain promises to always be there, no he showed it that when no one knew the meaning of it, he by faith died for you and me. He cared. Look at the Father who created us. Behold the creator of this world and all life. He is loving. He is kind. He willingly gave up his son and at the same time his life because he cared. He is still there, he still cares. You are not alone. Thank you Jesus for Saving the world, that all who would believe on you and call upon you can have their names written in your book of life.
Tonight I am remembering to give credit to who credit is due. We all have human fathers, some are great fathers, some far from, nevertheless, even if we have great fathers, we must remember to whom credit is due. It is always due to our heavenly father because all good things are a gift from God, and what is seen is only temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
I always want someone to praise and to meet someone who is praise worthy, yet I find so few people who deserve it. As a matter of fact, when Jesus was approached and praised as “good teacher”, Jesus quickly replied, “good? why do you call me good? only one is good and that is God”. Yet, I keep seeking that perfect person and yet I keep being disappointed over and over again. So why do I keep searching hearts for that perfect person?
Maybe it is the Lord raising my standards. As I seek perfection in others, I also am striving for perfection. Oh no, I am far from perfection as I don’t meet my own standards on a daily basis, but I keep trying, and I like the person I have become. As I have gotten to know and understand myself I am growing to really like myself, but this also requires the Lord’s help as he has to help me see myself the way he sees me.
The Lord Jesus is the example of perfect love, and as I have grown to experience it and understand it, I have been able to accept and love myself more. It also has helped me to love others more as well. I think that this need for perfection is God given, because he wants us to all be perfect like him.
When others fail us and fail to love us like we need or feel we deserve, then it is because they are lacking a little Jesus in their souls. Maybe they are Christians but they are exposing areas of imperfection resulting from not being perfected by Christ’s perfect love. I even hear preachers preaching hostile messages about people teaching people that God is all loving. I understand their message in that they are concerned that this “Loving God” perception will prevent people from truly repenting, yet what is the world coming to when a preacher preaches against teaching about the love of God? God is love, and it was because he loved us that he redeemed us. Whether we love him or not is up to us, and that choice will determine our destiny, yet we cannot even seek him unless he draws us near to him, and he wouldn’t draw us near to him if he hadn’t made a choice to love us without condition.
People get hurt in this life, and they really destroy one another, yet no one has been hurt as much as we hurt God. Every day that we make a selfish, inconsiderate choice it hurts God. Every time we neglect to consider him it could hurt him, it is really fortunate that he won’t treat us the way that we treat one another, or even how we deserve. Do not repay evil with evil, but overcome evil with good. Jesus did it, so why shouldn’t I?
Thank you Father for resetting my life. Thank you for being down to earth and caring about my every need. Thank you for not leaving me orphaned. Thank you for caring about my family. Thank you for caring about how people treat me. Thank you for caring about my soul. Thank you for sending others into my life to say prayers for me. Thank you for seeing me. Thank you for setting my feet on your rock. Thank you for opening my eyes. Thank you for deliverance. Thank you for a hope and a future. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for all of your gifts. Thank you for confidence. Thank you for shining your light in this clay vessel. Thank you for your jealousy. Thank you for fear that leads me to you. Thank you for humbling me. Thank you for making me weak. Thank you for creating me with a need for you. Thank you for everything. Thank you my glorious heavenly Father. I love you because you first loved me.
Matthew 11:28-30 NLT “Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”
It is true that Jesus’s yoke is light, and it is easy, but Satan does everything in his power to deceive us to make us think that we don’t want to put on that yoke. In order to put on that yoke we must push through so much darkness, distractions, lusts, confusions, discouragements, burdens, at least perceived burdens, in order to apply that yoke. That is what makes that yoke so light, it is that all the stuff we had dealt with before that yoke that was heavy and it just sapped or souls.
So what is this yoke that Jesus talks about that we must apply? It is surrender. True, raw, unadulterated, pure surrender to the Father and his Son. That yoke is truly light once we put it on. Up until we picked it up we thought it looked impossible to put on. We saw slavery. We saw death. Instead we found out that it was so light and easier than anything else we had handled prior.
He said, “come to me all you who are weary and I will give you rest”, then he told us that putting on his yoke was what was needed to have it. It is so much lighter than the life we are trying to save all the while still being unsatisfied. It is so restful because it is the gateway to life. We then gain insight into how there is only one thing needful, to learn from him. Only one thing beneficial, to eat on his words. To live by them, to quote them and celebrate them. To rejoice in him. To love and worship him.
We learn that all our problems are but dust in comparison to his glory. What was so magnified to us before has now reduced to rubble. The mountains jump up and fall into the sea as Jesus is glorified and magnified. All our debts are forgiven and paid for. We are now innocent and white as snow.
We now are known and are truly loved and cared about. When we commune with he who truly loves our soul, then who can we fear because we are now loved by the King, and no one can defeat him or you now that you are the heir to his throne. What is this throne that he talks of anyways? It is peace, it is righteousness, it is joy, it is grace, it is mercy, and perfection. It is completeness. It is love, it is wholeness it is being known and being all you never dreamed you were meant to be.
Today’s lesson is about natural selection. Have you ever wondered why so many male animals must fight each other before the breeding begins? I have. The experts have concluded that this is “nature’s” process of natural selections, which they explain helps ensure that only the strongest and most viable male will inseminate the females for the best offspring. At least this is how I recall it being taught. While I am just as intrigued as the next person about nature, I also understand that this is not “nature” but rather it is God who has a purpose for everything.
Job 12:7-10 King James Version (KJV)
“But ask now the beasts, and they shall teach thee; and the fowls of the air, and they shall tell thee: Or speak to the earth, and it shall teach thee: and the fishes of the sea shall declare unto thee. Who knoweth not in all these that the hand of the Lord hath wrought this? In whose hand is the soul of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind”
Job 35:11 King James Version (KJV)
“Who teacheth us more than the beasts of the earth, and maketh us wiser than the fowls of heaven?”
God gave us rule of the animals of the earth, but that does not mean that they do not serve his purpose or are valuable as he cares for them and just as we reveal the glory of God, being made in his image, so do the animals of the earth. There are many passages in scripture which explain to us life lessons related to how animals behave in nature. One example is given regarding how the ants work hard (Proverbs 6:6), another is telling us to consider the birds of the air, how God cares for them (Matthew 6:26). Since there is so many lessons about life regarding the ways of animals, then what can we learn about male competitiveness and rams? ??
…. As I considered these things, the Lord helped me understand something about himself as compared to the way of rams according to my understanding. He showed me that two rams butting heads for the right to mate with the female, is like him and Satan butting heads over who wins the affections of our souls. When our egos are at war with one another, when the carnal part of us is warring with the conscience, it is like two rams butting heads. The beauty of this is that God has allowed us to have natural selection. He doesn’t force us to choose him, but instead he will butt heads with Satan over you. The stronger one always wins in the end. Part of the natural process is that the one who we truly love the most will be revealed. Hallelujah!
So many thoughts cross my mind that I would prefer not be there. I waste so much time focusing on things that I ought not to. God loves us so much that he has literally stepped into our homes (no matter how messy or unlovely they are), and has come down to reason with us on our level (even though we are as dumb as sheep), and made a home with us who seek him in truth. This is Love! So even when my mind strays and I have thoughts I wish I hadn’t, and I focus on cares I shouldn’t, and with every mistake I make- God has me covered! Psalms 91:1 explains to us that those who dwell in the shelter of the most high, will rest in the shadow of the almighty. He’s got you covered! You can rest! Have peace! For his love shelters me and makes me complete. I have no want for anything (Psalm 23:1) for the Lord is my Shepherd! He’s got you covered, hallelujah you are so good to us God. Thank you for loving me, my Savior and my Lord! My prince of peace. I will surely sing of your love forever for your love in unending.
I often don’t even know what I’m going to say when I open a new blog. This is the title that keeps coming to my heart, yet I don’t know what to say. He makes all things work for my good. This means that all the little things that we feel ashamed about desiring or maybe it is a personal struggle that really weighs us down, are allowed to be there for God’s purposes. We don’t have to think that we are alone or fear abandonment by God for having these “light and momentary afflictions” because he is the Alpha and Omega, which means that he is ultimately in control of the happenings of our souls and we are not alone. Don’t think that what you go through is so unusual, as a matter of fact it is a common occurrence to many believers, yet many are not at liberty to discuss it. That is also the wonderful thing about shedding light in the darkness, because when the light exposes the darkness, it leaves. It loses its power. When we hide issues and truths that we would rather not be brought to the light, then instead of going away, they grow into a big ugly monster. When the light illuminates what is in the dark, then it becomes small and powerless, and thousands of demons go to flight. Demons cannot stand the light. Their powers are in their lies. As long as we allow them to stay in the shadows then they will pull us down into the their depths of despair. Despair is not of God and cannot continue when in the light. Bring the truth to the light. Amen.
I have an issue with questioning who my future husband will be. I inspect many people who come across my path. I have always been husband focused. I hate this. It is a desire that never meets satisfaction. I believe that everything will work out for my good, even the minor, more pesky challenges that I face. Even this issue I keep having. I believe that God uses this need within me to help me understand that he is my husband. No, I don’t believe it is wrong to remarry and I know I will marry again, but this time I have a new purpose, and that is to please Jesus and have true contentment. Not a life of my own making, but rather of his choosing. As I keep asking, “who is my husband”, I am reminded of the way God showed my heart to me today and revealed to me that he is working on my behalf about diverse things. Then I am once again reminded that God is my husband. What does it mean to call God my husband? It means that he watches out for me. He is faithful to me and is thinking about me. He understands me like no one else can understand me, and he is for me and not against me. He is the best listener. He is the most loyal friend. He is there even when I don’t deserve it. He cherishes me and tells me how much he adores me. He gives me gifts. He is Sovereign and reveals to me that he is in control and that I have to only trust him and obey. God is so Sovereign, when I look upon this I have a deeper need within me met that wants to be submissive. I want to let him lead me. I want to be cared for and loved. I don’t want to be mistreated. God is truly my husband, and I can enjoy this union with him even better than if I was married to a carnal man. Lord, help me forget about this need or put it in its proper place. Amen.
I had a dream this morning that I was tempted and eager to give into that temptation. As a matter of fact I had made a choice to give in, but while preparing to give in to the lusts of the flesh, I briefly looked to God and prayed. What happened next was that he closed the doors. I could have pushed them open and forced the sin, but instead I went with it and accepted that God looked out for me and prevented me from sinning. While laying in bed awake afterwards I was feeling the weight of my flesh desires verses my knowledge of what is right. I hate the idea of is standing before God after I had knowingly given into sin, especially after all that he has done for me, such as giving me the gift of knowledge and many mercies. How can I not stand there condemned? I would accuse myself! I don’t need Satan to accuse me. Usually scenarios like what happened in my dream adds to my anxiety because I know better, yet I choose to engage in that temptation anyways. But, in my dream God delivered me. God has forgiven me. I also think of all the people who I judged because they gave into their weaknesses and knowingly sinned against me or a loved one. Here’s a difficult concept for some people to accept, God knows we are evil in our flesh nature, and he has chosen to forgive us. Jesus died so that when I sin, it can be forgiven. Does that mean that I or anyone should knowingly engage in sin? No, we should not knowingly engage in sins, yet there are times when we will. If it was not for his forgiveness, great love, and mercy then who could stand? No one could stand. I am just not good enough. No one is good enough. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. This is reason to praise God. He loved us enough that while we were sinners he died for us. Lord, please help me remember that forgiveness is necessary in relationships even when the other person lets us down, and that love covers a multitude of sins. Thank you for reminding me that you love me despite my temptations and failures. It is my desire that I won’t fail anymore. Help me be stronger than I am, yet I am grateful that without your grace I cannot succeed. It is because you love me and forgive me that I am able to stand. Deliver me from evil, and from temptations. Lift up my feet so that I will soar above the trials and not hit my feet on the stones. I am righteous because you have loved me and because I said no even though I could have. You want me to remember that. I was tempted, but when you made a way out, I took it. Thank you for making a way out. Thank you for encouraging me that before your site and because of your great wisdom, I am righteous. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. Amen. What the Lord is telling me this morning is that this is spiritual warfare, and that no weapon formed against me will prosper. Hallelujah!
Today I am reflecting on how we are to think of ourselves with sober judgement. We all feel special to some extent, because we are. How can we not be when we were made in God’s image? We are made to reflect God’s glory. Yet, sometimes we only focus on our attributes rather than the bigger picture which is, how the world might view us. As I consider the world’s view of myself, or rather how someone who isn’t biased might view me, I realize that without the vision of God, I look like an ordinary average person. I see my weaknesses and my flaws. I can see the difference between my ideal of myself, and what I am in reality. The truth is that only God can make this unappealing earthen vessel into his master piece.
Also, I realize that only God can help me overcome my every day to day obstacles, the Lord knows I have not been able to do this myself. Only God can justify me. Only God can defend me. Even now it comes to knowledge that all those who would think to form a plot against me, or think evil of me, God is there interceding for me as we speak. Only God knows me as I hope to be, only God is able to truly believe in me. Each person is unique. Each person is without hope, and only God can redeem them. Each person needs God’s mercy, the mercy that only God can provide.
Only God stays near me, even when I fail. I fail all of the time. Only God can love me, even when I am unlovable. Only God can uphold me, and my purpose is for him. Without him I would had already committed suicide years ago, even if I didn’t die, I would be dead already on the inside without him. He truly is the only good being in this life. No, there are good people, lovable, caring souls but no one is perfect, even Jesus said only God is truly good. There just isn’t any purpose in this life, and only God is the reason why I find myself. I was created to know him. I was created to praise him. I was not ever able to be satisfied by anything in this life, except for God. Only God.