How Do I Know When I’m Ready?

twosticks

I’ve been wondering why I haven’t been able to successfully date someone?  I mean I recently had a boyfriend who was far away, we never met in person, but when it comes to dating men nearby I have anxiety.  Honestly, I have had anxiety anyways which also made it hard for me to enjoy my long distance relationship.  I realize that I have just not been really ready.  I know that God will make all things clear, and that he knows this is a topic that concerns me and he cares.  Sometimes it is the seeking that gives us the answers we need.  Only if we know the questions we seek.  I know that God will cause all things to work out for my good.  How do I know when its time?  I think that I will know it is right when I am not trying to force it.  I think I will know it is right when I am not trying to compromise.  I think that the reason I can wait, even though I hate waiting, is because I do not need a partner, though God may bless me with one.  I need only one, and that is God.  Two are better than one, but two is not mandatory, and should not replace our relationship with God.  God has made it clear to me that he makes me sufficient for my girls who don’t have their dad.  His love for me is also sweeter than that of any man.  When we have God, then we have all that we need.  I need to complete God’s project that he gave me.  I trust him to provide for all of my needs.  It is in the waiting he has shown me.  Maybe it is when I am certain that I am enough that I will be ready.  I don’t know if my self-concept will ever change, but God knows what I need.  He knows when I’m ready.  Lord, please lead me and enlighten the eyes of my understanding.  Amen.

These Burdens Are Too Much

matthew11-28-

It is true that our burdens are too much.  We were created to have and enjoy our lives, and our curse was to have to work for it.  We were created to have our every need provided for.  Rams have indwelt abilities to withstand headbutts, but we do not have an indwelt ability to carry our own burdens.  These burdens are too much.  When we think about what our burdens cost us, why not cast our cares on Jesus, who died for us?  He said, “come to me all you who are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest, cast your cares upon me, because I care for you”.  Part of the curse of death is having to carry our burdens alone.  These burdens are too much.  When we turn to God with our cares, he is able to give us rest for our tired bones.  Thank you Lord for relieving my cares and for taking care of everything that concerns me.  Please remind us all that you are near, not far away.  Remind us that we are not meant to carry our burdens alone, but that we can cast those cares upon you and that as we do you keep us safe.  Help us have rest.  Amen

heavy-burdens-to-carry

God Defends Me, I Am Not Afraid

god defender

Isaiah 37:35 KJV “ For I will defend this city to save it for mine own sake, and for my servant David’s sake”

Psalm 105:15 KJV  “Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm”

 

Many times the Lord had revealed to me how he punished a person who at one time or another had stood against me.  He always defends his anointed, in his own way and in his own time.  He had given me revelation knowledge maybe immediately after the person spoke or stood against me, or way after it had occurred which was always affirmed by its manifestation.

So why will God do this for me or another?  Is it because I am special or that he respects me over another?  No.  I am not better than anyone else, I am weak and human.  Rather, it is because I am anointed with his Spirit, and it is for his names sake that he defends his anointed ones.

His word makes it clear that he defends the weak, first of all.  Secondly, he defends what is right, for he leads us on paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.  When an anointed man or woman of God is walking under the inspiration of his Holy Spirit, then whoever offends that person is offending God himself, for whatsoever a person does to his anointed ones they also do to him.

God must defend his anointed ones for righteousness sake.  Hebrews chapter 12 makes it clear that God will punish those who he loves, so when a person acts out of line, or mindlessly speaks curses and is unjust in their dealings, then they are standing against the law, and they are standing against what is right, and God is righteousness himself.  He also defends and protects his bride, because he is a faithful husband, and we who love him are in covenant with him, we are his bride.

God even corrects other anointed men and women who stand against me when they are out of line, because what is wrong is wrong, and what is right is right.  God’s correction will surely come, but many will not be corrected because of their pride.  This is not right.  Therefore, it is necessary that in order for that person who is corrected, correctly, by God that they should receive it.  Don’t harden your heart, rather humble yourselves.  Even I am corrected from time to time when it is right.

Those who are anointed by God should be in step with God.  They should maintain a humble and malleable attitude at all times, because humility is the mark of a true servant of God, not pride.  The good news is that grief might last for a night, but joy will certainly come in the morning, and those who are corrected by the Lord’s rebuke will reap a harvest of righteousness (Hebrews 12:11).

If you earnestly seek the Lord and earnestly open your heart to his correction, then he will lift you high and honor you with long life.  Dear ones you anointed ones need not ever fear for God will defend you for his names sake.  This is why I don’t bother defending myself, because I know God will do it.  I know that those who speak against me without righteous heart motives will be dealt with according to God’s name, especially when it is against him.  I don’t fret, they are setting themselves up for their own downfalls, I rest secure Hallelujah.  Thank you Abba Father for defending me.  Your love is fierce and your justice sentence is always right.  You are glorious.  I praise you.  Amen.

psalm91

The Good Father

Godslove

God is a good father.  We know this in theory, but do we know it in heart?  I love how personal God makes things for me to comprehend.  He will do this for anyone who seeks to know him and asks him for help.  I rely on him to get through my day, as I am weak and he is my strength, and he makes me strong for sure by comforting me and counseling me.  It is his faith.  We say with our mouths that God will protect us, but do we believe?  We sing his praises in the church chair or pew, but do we then walk away and believe he is going to do evil things to us if we make even the slightest mistake?  If we truly believe that he is good as we sing about when we praise him, then why are we afraid?  The Lord wants to give you a deep, personal revelation of his love.  He is not just good to a few, he is good to all, it is the lack of faith that keeps us from seeing it.  Lord, open our eyes.  Heal our hearts.  Give us rest and peace today.  Open our eyes so that we can see you.  Give us deep penetration today, not because we deserve it, but because you are good.  Here is what he told me, and it is true for us all.  He said, if you who are evil (yes, all humans have evil in them aka flesh) know how to do good things for your children…… this means that if we consider the most evil person, even they know how to bless a person… so if we who are naturally evil, know how to do good for our children, then how much more will he, GOD, who made us, and who is naturally good and loving, know how to do good things for his children?  God said, “I created good.. who do you think first came up with the idea of surprises and blessing a person’s socks off??”  So we can praise him for the good he will do, even though we don’t know what the good thing is yet, just because we know that we will be faithful to give us all good things in the name of Jesus.  Amen.

god-images-photos-worship

Everything Will Fall Into Place

Business and team work concept.
Business and team work concept.

One of my good friends had been saying the same thing over the months, they said, “when our situations settle, everything will fall into place”.  I knew exactly what that meant.  It means that God has a plan and when all the situations work out, then the pieces that we have been trying to find the proper place for will suddenly fall into place.  I have spent so much time trying to force pieces into place, not being content until the puzzle was solved, however being willing to ensure that this occurred even if the final image was bent, torn, and close to the correct size but not right after all.  That is called impatience.  That is called fear.  Fear of not having a completed puzzle, and fear that God will leave me to figure it out on my own.  Even though this is something I couldn’t consciously comprehend, that is what was beneath the surface festering, causing me to put together and try to force together pieces of the puzzle that were not meant to fit.  This friend also once said to me, “don’t force anything!”  That wisdom has never left my mind, and it has since lingered and guided the path that I have been taking since than.  So, what will the final outcome be?  The truth is that none of know what we will end up being, or what God has in store for us.  We couldn’t even fathom or imagine it, the bible tells us this.  All we have to do is trust in God.  We just need to have a relationship with him, talk to him, and seek him in earnest.  Do our best to please him as a wife would do for her husband, a Son for his Father, A daughter for her mother, a husband for his bride, though that is what we are to Jesus.  Jesus never got to have a bride.  I got to thinking one day that maybe Jesus would have loved a bride.  Maybe he would have loved Mary Magdalene or someone else, and maybe that was the need that God intended to satisfy him with and made the church his bride.  Maybe that was Jesus secret prize for faithfulness.  I am not pretending that that is what the bible said, rather it is just a guess because that is the way God is.  He intends on giving us back far more than we could ever expect or give him in return.  We are his bride.  We are his pride and joy, and our completeness is his eternal joy.  That is what is his prize, to see us truly fulfilled.  That is what love is.  So for this reason we can trust that everything is meant to fall into place for us.  It surely will.

jesusandbride

Be Brave and Say Goodbye

winnie the pooh goodbye

I said goodbye so many times.  Now I find my mind still wonders to him.  This time I’m reminded as to why I keep saying goodbye.  When it is not right, it just is not right, no matter how much we had want it to be right.  Be brave enough to say goodbye.  God makes all things right.  God is always right.  Just let him go, and this time, mean it when you say goodbye.  God has bigger plans for the both of you.  This time, don’t think about what could’ve been, or even what should have been, though what should have been was genuine love.  It doesn’t make either of you wrong, it means that you are now growing up.  Be brave enough to say goodbye.  Saying goodbye doesn’t mean you hate each other, it means that you love each other by doing what is best for the other.  People talk of toxic people and toxic love, yet is there one person who is truly better than another?  We all have our flaws and failures, we all screw up in one way or another.  It means that you have different callings, and gifts that are unique to your own life and if you have a conflict of interest, you will always be at odds.  Take your time and chose right before you say I do.  Chose to love each other and if you cannot give yourself up for the other than allow them to go.  Be brave and say goodbye.

saygoodbye

I Only Trust in Jesus Apart From the Word

 

download (1)

This might be a shocker statement to some religious folks out there.  Surely someone wouldn’t make assumptions about what I mean without first reading what I have to say.  We are told that we now have a righteousness apart from the law, and that is faith in God through Jesus Christ (Romans 3:21).  What this means for me is that God is my confidant, if I have a problem or concern about anything I can go to him about it, and he also justifies me.  He made the law.  Why go to the law when looking for the truth?  The written law is in black and white and without personality, it does not think, it is merely words with an open and shut case.  It will never be able to mold or bend to allow for your weakness.  It is not able to think for you.  It does not have feelings for you.  God, on the other hand has feelings.  If you had an issue with being able to keep a law, like if you had a debt you owed, and you weren’t able to pay it, and you were able to go to the judge who issued the law in the first place, without fear because he was a loving and merciful man, wouldn’t you rather do it, or just let the law judge you?  This is the beauty of being able to approach the throne of grace, is that unlike the written law, the one who sits on the throne, the law maker is able to adjust it for you, or show you how to fulfill it with added grace.  God is not out to punish us.  He is not a tyrant.  He wants us to approach him.  He wants us to fulfill the law in spirit and in truth, not for the sake of the cold, unfeeling words of the law, but rather for the sake of truth and righteousness.  Therefore, it is not the law that I bow my knee to, but it is only God who I serve.  The law is a boundary keeper.  The law is a wall set along the path of righteousness to keep us on the right path, but the law is not in charge, rather God is.  How sad to think that so many christian, myself included, have believed that the law itself was God.  That the law which is unforgiving and relentless would be our final judge, when this whole time they were given provision to enter into God’s throne room of grace to help them along the way, the maker of the law.  When a person is struggling at their job, for whatever reason, maybe they are having personal problems at home, would they need to fear if they were best friends with an understanding boss who is patient and merciful?  Some Christians see that being chummy with the boss and taking advantage of that privilege is simply just not holy, and they set up their own laws and walls for others to follow, but to what advantage?  This is still an attempt to find justification outside of the sacrifice of Jesus’s life, all else is rubbish and should be counted as loss.  Just admit it, you are not ever going to truly measure up.  Only daddy can lead the way.  Only he can justify.  God is God.

Isaiah 45:2 KJV 

I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron”

download

God Has a Plan

TrustInGod

God has a plan.  When we fret about the direction our life is going, it is because we are not resting in God.  Resting means that we trust him.  When we make dumb decisions about our finances and relationships, it is because we are trying to drive the car called life, when all along God is the one who directs our paths.  He has a plan.  Today I have peace as I trust in him.  It doesn’t mean that I know what tomorrow will bring, he says that men have not seen what he has planned, but I do know by faith that those are all good plans and that all things will work for my good.  Thank you God for holding my life in the palm of your hands and for giving me your light.  Please lead me on the path that leads me on paths of righteousness.  I am yours.

The Essence of Salvation

 

 

cropped-cropped-brideofchrist.jpg

What is the essence of salvation?  It is that our heavenly Father rescued us from the death we deserved, because he loves us.  People say, “if God is really that loving then….” then he would do anything for the salvation of our souls, which includes letting us go through hell fire so that it is truly heaven that we learn to love.  A loving God would do what it takes to save us, and that is what he does.

The essence of salvation is that we are loved.  We are truly sought after, seen, known, cared about, wanted, taken seriously by and sacrificed for by the one who gave it all for each and every one of us.  In a world where we grow accustomed to not having our love needs met, we don’t yet comprehend the fullness of his love.  If we only looked for him, and sought him out, we could see just how much, how wide, and deep is his great love.

The essence of salvation is that God is always good, although life sometimes hurts. He will cause all things to work out for the good of those who love him and whom he called.  He truly cares about all of his children, and he is good all the time.  He is patient, and he has trust because he sees the truth within each of us, that we are like him too.  He calls us to love, but first he loved, and taught us to receive his own love.

The essence of salvation is that we finally met the only one who loves our soul, or that is even truly capable.  We met the good shepherd who aspires to give us peace and rest, all we have to do is finally trust him and we will find the truth and joy and be glad.  In him we can let our hair down and finally be who we are, and with him we are safe.  Not only that but he is our provider, and our confidant.  He is and will be forever our friend.  This is the essence of being saved by Jesus.

jesusonthecross

Soul Prospering

mountains

Many people associate prospering with having stable finances, or with having loved ones all around them.  Though these things can be called prosperity, they are not the same thing as soul prospering.  A soul may prosper whether the person is rich or poor.  A soul may prosper whether they are loved by many or alone.  Soul prospering has nothing to do with our circumstances, or what we have or not have.  Though every human being would love to have these types of prosperity, it was not lasting.  If your soul prospers based on what is happening around you, then what happens to your soul if circumstances change?  Abraham was promised many descendants, yet before he had died he only had two living sons.  Yet, he still prospered.  Soul prospering comes from the inside out and is based on faith.  It is rooted in what God says about you, and what he promises you.  Your circumstances can look bleak while someone who isn’t Godly seems to have much prosperity, but as I mentioned, circumstances can change.  Even if they never change, one can still have soul prosperity.  When a person’s soul prospers, then they have no fear, and they have much joy and peace.  It is God’s will that we all prosper, even as our soul prospers.  The only way to gain true soul prosperity is to be connected to God, and then the life blood of Jesus flows through our veins giving prosperity to everything.  It assures you that you are accepted, loved, and adored.  It assures you that God cares about every single thing that concerns you and that he is for you and not against you.  It takes all your insecurities away.  It changes us from the inside out, where we are free to be ourselves.  We can now be naked and unashamed.  God wipes all of our tears away.  We are known, we are celebrated, and we know without a shadow of a doubt that that will never change.  We have a future, and we have a hope, even if it is only for eternity where we will never endure sadness again.  Thank you Lord for soul prosperity.  Thank you Jesus for dying so that we can live.

Psalm 16:9 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
    my body also will rest secure”

560e29f0af2b385f700f653e52bfc1e9