My Defender, My God

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One thing that I’ve always experienced in my life is rejection coupled with God’s defense.  This is not an accident.  Each one of us is created to reveal his glory according to the proportion of our faith.  It used to surprise me when God revealed his favor for me to someone, they would say, “wow, you were right”.  I knew it all, because God already told me, so why were they so surprised?.  I used to get so upset when people didn’t see my worth or misunderstood me.  Now I have accepted it.  Rarely do people see what God shows me right away.  Eventually the truth is revealed.  It just doesn’t matter to me anymore.  I don’t need another’s approval, I only ever have needed God’s.  God has allowed me to be misunderstood and rejected so that he alone would be my source.  I used to crave affirmation, who doesn’t like affirmation?  Now I just don’t need it.  I only need God’s.  It would be nice if a person would come and stay, but seasons of separation are part of God’s plan.  He won’t ever let someone else take his place in my life.  Not everyone would see this the way that I do, nor would they accept and and understand it, and that doesn’t matter either.  I only need God to tell me that I’m where I need to be.  The times I do get my hopes up and start to put my sites on a person to lift me up, God quickly reminds me that they are but dust.  No one shall take his place of glory in my life.  We can love people, we can fellowship with people, we can assist and receive help from other people, but we should never exalt people to the pedestal of authority that is meant to be God’s.  There was a time that Israel asked God for a king, as a matter of fact they insisted on it.  God did not plan for a person to rule over us.  Kings were not part of his original design.  We pushed for it, so he finally gave us Kings to rule over us.  This was not what he had in mind.  There is no human that is great without God’s anointing.  No one is worthy of praise like God.  As much as I have been let down by others, constantly, I am grateful that this has been my experience.  Yes, I am sensitive.  Yes, I expect perfection, but is that a bad thing?  It is when I am looking to a person to be that God.  God is who I have always longed for.  I am designed to worship him alone.  Because I have had the grace to understand his forgiveness I can walk in forgiveness towards others.  Dealing with people requires a large dose of forgiving, but here’s the thing.  If you expect to deal with a person and not be let down, you are in for a long bumpy ride. People are made from dust.  God reminds me of this over and over again so I can remember that he is God, and no person is anywhere near his throne to be worshiped.    If we have God, how can we ever go wrong?  Who can speak against us?  No, we don’t need a King.  We need to worship God. Don’t get discouraged when others fail you or don’t understand you.  God will defend you.  You only need his love.  Thank you God for always defending me.

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Author: sweetgentlespirit

Through life's challenges I have learned that Jesus really is the only one who can truly satisfy. Through his grace I have already achieved so much, and wish to include you all in my journey as I continue to press on towards the mark to which I was called. I hope that you can identify and share in my successes and even my failures. It is also my hope that you will see what a day in the life of a spirit filled believer looks like up close and personal. May you be blessed as I am blessed, and may you share in my anointed grace. God bless you as you read.

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