Within the last 48 hours I’ve had 3 men approach me and give me a word from the Lord. Each word has pertained to ministry. I’m being told God has given me favor. I’m told I will lead many people and help them. I’ve been told God will help me and he’s with me. It is God who has inspired a few destiny helpers to think to pray for me regarding these things. The thing is that I already know God is leading me into evangelism. I know I will visit other countries and lead people. I don’t know how, except that God will guide. I don’t need people to validate this to me, however the fact that God inspired people to approach me and speak to me concerning this is very encouraging. I am writing a book. I feel like I’ve been saying this forever, but it’s taken me this long to get to this point. It is intimidating writing this book because I’ve never written a book before, though I know this is what I’m made for. I finally got through my outline which I had taken a short cut and tried to skip doing an outline, which just ended up delaying the process more. I would claim that it’s been a waste of time, but that would be false. Even though I haven’t made the progress I’d wanted to by now, all the work I had put into brain mapping, outlining, writing thoughts here and there.. filling up note book after note book with ideas, all eventually lead me to the actual writing of the book. So all the books and articles I’ve read about writing a book has been accurate in that they all say one common thing, and that is that at the end of the day, what matters is to write. So I had finally gritted my teeth and pushed myself past the automatic discouragement, fear, and distractions that want to derail me. I also never sit down anymore to write without first praying for God’s grace to help me write. This has been fundamental in getting me through the process. I am confident that future books (a couple are already in the budding stages) won’t be so painfully long to get accomplished.
I’ve had several prophesies, dreams, and visions regarding my future in ministry. I had been afraid to openly talk about such things for fear that it looks like I’m bragging. However, I am continually reminded by the Lord that the reason why he shows me some things is so that I can declare it from the mountain tops. Sure, there are areas that I could have more discretion in, and discretion is what I have been asking for a lot lately. Discretion of the spirits of every matter, because up til now during my entire spirit filled life I had been pulled by two voices. God’s and the counterfeit, 3 if you consider my own. I had asked people about this experience much this past year, and I don’t get a lot of feedback, other than “his sheep know his voice”.. which at first I took as offense because I felt like they were implying I didn’t know God’s voice. People just aren’t always going to be able to judge our experiences because they are so personal and they just cannot know unless they were able to walk in our shoes for some days. The good that comes from this is that there is a purpose for all that we go through, and I have discovered that the reason I’ve been allowed to go through the spiritual experiences I have, especially concerning the spirit of fear, is so I can teach the world about distinguishing between God’s voice and Satan’s voice. This is preparation for the anti-Christ, because the biggest issue during that time will be that people will be lead astray and deceived by the counterfeit spirits, the signs and miracles, the appearance of Godliness that all have an appearance of wisdom, but all of them deny that Jesus is the Christ. Even believers will be deceived i believe. I believe this adamantly because of my own personal trial with being confused about the voice of the spirit of fear vs God’s holy spirit. Satan’s presence is so crafty that the feelings are very similar to that of the holy spirit, the words can be scriptural, yet have the wrong spirit. What about when you are prophetic but you hear two voices? It sounds like the same voice, however one voice leads you one direction, and the other the opposite direction. It is clear to me now that the only way a person will be able to rise above and overcome in following the Lord during such an experience is if they are truly crucifying their life, picking up their cross and truly obeying. The knowledge of the word in itself is dangerously deceptive in that knowledge can puff up and lead one to fool themselves into thinking they are in the right because they know what is right. Yet as they continue not obey the word they know, they will be lead the wrong way.. and think they are right in the process. God has set up our lives in a way that requires true devotion in order for us to be saved. However, even if we turn to the right or to the left, we will always hear a voice behind us telling us the right way… he will finish the good work he began in us that is for sure. Amen.