Worry Not

Satan wants us to worry. I don’t know about you, but I always have something to worry about. I realize that even if I received relief in that “one thing” that I think I need so badly, then I would just move on to worry about something else. We are not meant to live from worry to worry, but rather we are meant to live from glory to glory. There is a difference amen. Living a peaceful life does not necessarily meaning living a stress free life. Rather, abiding in peace is a matter of two things, well more than two things but I want to list these two things, and that is #1. Choice and #2. Trust. I choose to let peace dwell in my heart. It is a choice. If we are told to “let peace dwell in your hearts” Colossians 3:15, then this means that somewhere in us or around us peace is knocking and trying to enter the room of your mind, however you have chosen not to let it in. You are told to let it come in. This is hard to fathom when problem after problem after problem, after problem keeps coming to hang out. You have to finally just ignore “problem” who is sitting in front of you, tell you what you should be doing but are unable to accomplish for whatever reason, look past him and look instead at peace who is back behind him waving at you. Let him come in. So, how do you let him to come in? You ignore the problem and it WILL go away, eventually. Sometimes it will become obnoxious and jump up and down and do something drastic to get you to pay attention to him, however just keep ignoring him (I’m not talking about being lazy here, don’t think this is to give you permission to not do the work God has called you too, but that is a different matter) and look at peace. We have to focus our minds on things above, on the good report, on faith, on hope, on positive imaginations. Sometimes we just have to pray it away, or pray about someone else and just forget about worry.

If you are told a jillion times to not worry in the bible, then ask yourself “am I being obedient”, yes this is where you can see it as having permission to just be at peace, as once again we are told to “let” peace dwell in our hearts. What happens when you do so? You begin to get strong again and have increased faith. To make a stronger blog short I will move on to the second thing, and that is trust in God. Only my trust in God makes it possible to truly trust and have peace. Today I visualized a large, solid, warm rock that I was sitting on and that rock was Christ. This rock I understood would never become so small I cant sit on it as the Lord said that he does not change, he is not like man who is a rock and promises to be a rock but then end up becoming a slimy, slippery or disappearing rock. Rather, he is the solid rock amen. I had to really focus on this imagination, because if our rock that we sat on suddenly became slick, too smooth for us to sit firmly on, and began shrinking then that would not be a solid rock at all, but a joke in which we are made the fool. That rock is a solid, firm unchanging rock and it will not be taken from us. This is what Jesus told Mary when Martha, her sister was busy worrying about making her guests comfortable and on many other lifeless tasks. In her mind these tasks were much more important then sitting at Jesus feet learning his lessons. As a matter of face not only was Martha told that she is choosing the lifeless task but he also said that this would NOT be taken from Mary. So as we sit on our solid rock we can rest assured that this will be the only thing that is guarenteed to not move, but rather it is our perception that makes us believe it moves, but it does not per the word of truth which says he does not change. Also, we might leave the rock to chase after a helium balloon that is always just out of our reach. Our rock is still sure, solid and firm, we had just left it. We do this when we chase tasks as Martha will always tell herself that she will sit at Jesus feet when her tasks are done, however Satan will ensure that her tasks will never end. Just like the day that Cinderella was promised by her wicked step mother that as soon as she finished her tasks, she could go to the ball. Yet her list of tasks were impossible. Finally, we rest because we realize that only God can change a person or our situation. He gives, and he takes away. When we get a deep revelation that only he is in control truly, then we will relinquish the control. Amen.

Every Breath That I Take

Lord everything I adore, is in you. Everything that I have ever wanted from life or from a person, I have found in you. You are my long lost love. I was created to be yours. I was created to see you and to appreciate you. I was created to be used by you. I was created to have a romance with you. You are like a lover to my soul. You are like the husband I’ve always dreamed of. You make me complete. Everyday you have seen fit to visit me and minister to my heart. Every day that I feel alone you come and tell me good things. It is so clear to me how dead I was without you. Even now while living in this earthen vessel even as someone who loves you, even as your created I am constantly empty without you filling me up with your words of encouragement, with your life and your goodness. You come and lift up my head and you lift up my heart by telling me what you see in me. You address every single thing that I care about. This is life. This is what I have always longed for and have erroneously sought in another. Yet a husband you will give me. Yet I will have that need satisfied as you have come and told me again. But this time he will be second as you have shown me the truth. The truth is that I was made to love you and without you I am dead. Every single day I am desperate for you. If you take your presence away from me I am suffering. I need you every single minute of the day. You are literally my life. You are the air that I breath. You are the treasure that I seek.. you truly are my all and all and I find that being joined with you and being one with you, heart and heart is what my heart craves so desperately.. to be with you in eternity. To be in you, and you in me, you are my savior, you are my hero, you are my God. My one true love. Now I ask you who gives us what we ask in your name, that you will teach every person what it really means to call you God. Amen.

Resting In Him

We don’t begin to truly rest in God until we take our hands off of the driver’s wheel. People are so prone to thinking that they have to maintain control of the vehicle, otherwise it might crash. Not so for the Christian. We are told that if we want to save our lives, then we must lose them for his sake. This means that we surrender to his sovereignty and give Jesus the wheel… “but, but, but… ” there it is, the resistance. “If I take my hands off the wheel then I will crash”. That mentality implies a belief that you are on your own. Do you believe? This is the key question. We are told that when we believe, we enter his rest. When we trust him, we rest.

Isaiah 26:3 New King James Version (NKJV)

You will keep him in perfect peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You.

Who doesn’t desire to be at peace? Yet we don’t want to practice the art of trusting God. Sometimes it is a matter of not understanding how much God loves you and wants what is good for you. If we don’t have a revelation on the inside that God deeply loves us and cares about our well being, then surely this would explain why we wouldn’t give the wheel to him. When we hold onto the wheel, then that means that we think that we have the ability to keep ourselves safe. Sometimes what is required for us to hand over the driver’s wheel to the Lord is to get to the place in our lives that we understand that we are weak and blind and really don’t have a clue where we are going, though up to this point we may been deceived and thought we had the answers. It is never a shameful thing to admit that we don’t have a clue. On the contrary, when we throw our hands up in the air and confess “hey, I don’t have a clue” then we are right where we are meant to be, in a place of surrender. This place of surrender must take place before we can relinquish the wheel to another, which should always be Jesus and not a blind man who is still claiming that he has a clue. Satan aka the world has taught us that maintaining our ego and pride was the way to be a mature person, however according to God’s book, it is when we admit our weakness, first to ourselves and then to God, maybe even to others (which doesn’t matter what other people think at this point in time), then we are finally in a place of being lifted up and being made strong. For it is the meek who shall inherit the earth. Not the know it Alls. Lord Jesus, thank you for taking the wheel. Thank you for taking me to a place of surrender in which I can finally give the wheel to you. This is what I do now, I dwell in the comfortable place of safety under his wings. I talk to him, I draw near to him, and I stop fighting for my ways by his grace and let him have his ways… wow, what a relief to let someone else be in charge for once.