How has my week been in regards to the behavior or gluttony? Well, I have been conscientious of my eating habits since the last time ive blogged about this. I have overeaten a little and am still submitting this behavior to the father daily as I really want to overcome. I have been reminded of stomach sensations and what leads to being over full. Im reminded that once I reach full or what ive learned to rate as a 5 on a 0-10 hunger scale, 5 meaning full and anything after 5 is stomach hurt, too much, excess.. that after we stop at a 5, within an hour or so I experience the stomach sensation of emptying which my mind thinks “oh boy im not full anymore Im getting hungry “.. a weird sensation that gives an appearance of emptiness but is not hunger or emptiness. This is what I call a level 4 moving to a 3 on 0-10 scale. I ate a time to two at a “4” and discovered that when I ate at a 4, I quickly ended up at a 6 or 7… which is not what I want to do. So dealing with a 4 is my challenge for the week as my carnal mind wants to eat always.. so when I get to a 4.. my sin nature has fits.. to an American who is always surrounded by food, whether its sweet treats in the break room or whatever.. this is a challenge. So I have learned and gone to God about my 4, seeking grace to get to a 2 or not think about food at all until im a 0.. and when you are overweight it takes longer.. lol. So im not seeing results yet as far as weight loss goes, but rather its the sin itself im still tackling by his grace which begins with a willingness to lay it down and be accountable and asking God to not let me be content about overeating..
So when we offer our will to him, he begins to speak. He had told me a handful of times to stop eating this week when I would have done it otherwise.. and I find that I still have to make the choice and sometimes my willingness is more than other times. But im reminded that he knows best, so when his spirit or small voice speaks we should stop and really let it teach us and be changed by it.. because this is where connection with him is. This is where renewal is. It is one thing to ask and pray for help, its a whole different matter to attend to what his will is and actually put it into practice. Knowledge is not enough to change our actions. Applying knowledge to our daily choices is what activates the power behind this knowledge. So in essence to have knowledge yet not apply that knowledge means we really don’t have knowledge because other wise we’d put it to practice. If we have knowledge but dont apply it, then we are deceived and acting like fools..