Demonic Whispers

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Most people who don’t know the truth believe that our mental disorders are medical diseases.  Science has proven that there are certain brain chemistry changes in people with diverse mental diseases.  This helps aid the development of medication to help stabilize the nerve synapses and the hormone levels.  Being a medical professional myself, I advocate taking medication to help treat all of our illnesses.

Yet, as a Holy Spirit filled Christian who has been taught a lot about the unseen realm of the supernatural, which is confirmed by the Holy Bible, I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that science will never trump God’s truth.  As a matter of fact, science only evolves to finally conclude the ultimate truth, which is the Holy word of God.

According to the word of God which yes was written over a thousand years ago, inspired by the Holy Spirit, we are taught that the earth that we see, is built on the word of God.  The earth manifests God’s truth, it will never dispel it.  And in the areas where it has not yet evolved, it is temporarily ignorant.  One truth that I have found to prove that is the development of CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy which is probably the most effective behavioral modification program that teaches us to learn how to change our behaviors by first changing our thoughts, all the while it has been written in the ancient Holy Bible that we are to place our thoughts on things above.

As we dig into the bible and are enlightened through the power of the Holy Spirit (by the way, if you have never been saved you will not likely experience this enlightenment, because with salvation comes the Holy Spirit who teaches us the truth by the word of God, you can be a bible scholar and still not know the truth), we learn some valuable lessons about spiritual warfare.  We are told that our battle is not with flesh and blood, but with spiritual powers and wickedness in high places (Ephesians 6:12).  The real truth of the matter is that what we see from a science lab is a physical manifestation of a spiritual transformation.

All those low things that plague us, anxious thoughts, feelings of hopelessness and suicide, feelings of low self-worth, lust, pride.. the list is endless are geared by demonic whispers.  We have believed those whispers, embracing them as our own tainted thoughts.  I believe that taking medication and going to counseling is a worldly way of trying to resolve a spiritual issue.  Whereas, if we deal with the demonic stronghold behind those whispers, the cause of the psychological wound stops.

I had experienced depression with suicidal ideations since childhood.  When I was a young adult I was diagnosed with some mood and anxiety disorders and given medication to take.  The doctor told me that it would only get worse as I aged and that I would likely end up being hospitalized for it.  I would take the medication, stop the medication, take it, stop it.  At one point I accepted that I would always be dependent on psychotropic medications for the rest of my life, and that having major depression would always be my disability in life.  Then God started exposing the truth to me, he brought many anointed prophets into my life to pray for me, and then Satan was exposed and I was delivered from that spiritual bondage.  I can truly say that I am no longer oppressed or depressed.  I just don’t have that problem anymore.  Through God’s intervention, the lie of depression was exposed, the root cause being exposed then with that truth and prayer that issue was resolved.  I’d been healed, hallelujah.  Do I still have bad days?  Sure.  Do I get down sometimes?  Yes.  Though I would never call it depression because it isn’t like that anymore, maybe sad or discouraged.  Those feelings are normal, but depression, major depression, and the like are not.

There is so much more to say on this topic but I’ll conclude this topic for now and pick it back up another day as I’m led.  What thoughts are you experiencing today that have you anxious, confused, discouraged, depressed, hopeless, irritated?  Any that you are aware of?  You think they are really your thoughts, but are they really?

Lord, please expose the enemy and guide us into all the truth so that we can be freed from captivity.  Thank You Father God.  Amen.

A woman holds a glowing Bible with scary hands in the background.

Boast When You Are Weak

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I think it is safe to say that most people are not proud of their weak moments.  It is better to boast on what makes us weak, rather than on what makes us strong, because it is in our most vulnerable moments that God’s glory shines through us.  In Luke 18:10-14 Jesus gives us examples of two men who went to the temple to pray, one man was thanking God for how strong he was and how righteous he was, yet the other man was sorrowful due to all that was wrong.  Jesus then explained that the second man was the one who went home justified.

Jesus said that those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted (Luke 18:14).  Why?  Doesn’t God want us to obtain righteousness after all?  Then why would God want us to not glory in seeking and obtaining righteousness we might ask?  Does God contradict  himself?  I’m confused…. What I have found out through trial and error during my Christian walk (actually what God has graciously taught me) is that true righteousness comes from the heart.

Psalm 51:17 NLT “The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.  You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God”.  It is not our works that makes us righteous, but it is our faith that confirms to us that God sees us as right.  According to Romans 8:30 Paul explains that it is God who first called us, and then justified us.  Those he justifies he later glorifies when the time is right, but this is something he does.  It is from the heart that righteousness comes from.  It is from the abundance of the heart that the mouth speaks, and when we have a heart full of humility, knowing that nothing within ourselves is good except that which God refined in us, then when we speak it adds life to the listeners and confirms the truth.

What is the truth?  The truth is that none of us are truly righteous.  Yet when we confess our sins, God then purifies us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).  It is the person who is first full of their own weakness and humility who once they are lifted up, understands that it is not of themselves.  Therefore, when they approach someone who is full of sin and seems lost, they are able to season their words with salt from a heart full of humility rather than arrogant pride.  When we become strong and righteous, when we finally overcome… do you know that we become least in the Kingdom of God.. that is the more proud we become, the more unrighteous we become?  A heart full of judgement and pride cannot love as Jesus loved.  Jesus was only able to love because he was lowly in spirit.  Even though his actions were blameless at all times, once he was called “good” by someone, and he corrected that man saying, “why do you call me good?  There is only one good and that is God” (Mark 10:18).

Please don’t get me wrong, it is God who inspires us to do good works.  It is God who leads us on his paths of righteousness.  It is God who calls a pure, spotless bride.  The catch is, it is also God who justifies and purifies.  It is the heart attitude of a person that makes a man/woman right.  It is humility, faithfulness, loyalty, genuine love and consideration, esteeming others above themselves that is right.  What we eat, what we wear, and the works of our hands never makes us right, this is why I rarely judge a person by their outward appearances.  A person covered in tattoos smoking a cigar and drinking a beer can be more righteous than the man standing across from them wearing a suit with a tie, who would never touch a cigarette.   Does that make the first person right?  We all know that some things that we do to our bodies or put in our bodies are not good for us, and it is common to see a born again man of God start to put away such things as they are purified.  Yet, it is not the putting away of those things that makes that man righteous, it is their contrite heart before God.

When I am weak, then I am strong.  Oh, I love this verse yet I still abhor being weak sometimes.  I would rather be strong, never giving into temptation, never having a bad moment.. but it is the desire to do right that begins to purify us (1 John 3:3), because … righteousness comes from the heart.  It is the hunger to be right and the knowledge to know I am not.  It is the cry of a contrite heart that pleases God.  In 2 Corinthians 12:9 the Apostle Paul says, “I will brag all the more in my weakness, so that Christ’s power will rest on me”.

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That Is Hunger….

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That lack of satisfaction with something in your life, that is called hunger.  That need to change something about yourself which never goes away even when you justify it, that is hunger.  That lack of peace and happiness you feel, that is hunger.  Hunger is similar to the empty, burning you feel in your stomach pouch when your body runs low on fuel, sometimes hunger is manifested in other areas of your body, such as weakness, tiredness, irritability.  Those who have low blood sugar often feel the pains of hunger and learn to easily identify when they need to eat.  It is common knowledge that those of us who overeat on food, are often try to substitute soul hunger for physical hunger.  We even are so convinced that it is hard to train our brain otherwise, stressful eventual= sudden irresistible urge to raid the fridge or order a cheesy pizza.. or .. fill in the blank.

The bible speaks much about soul hunger, and even tells us the name of it, giving it a label for those of us who like and rely on labels, this label can help us identify what we are actually hungry for.  This label is called, “righteousness”.  Yes, we are deeply hungry for righteousness, to the point that without it we may whither away and die in our souls.  The Lord has helped me become familiar with this new label, and as I seek him when I’m feeling dissatisfied, he is teaching me why.  True, we humans often have emotions or a longing for something and we can’t even identify what the need is.  Some of us who believe we are smart in our rights will often label it ourselves, but we are told that this is foolishness, and to fear God and not rely on our own understanding.  He says, “acknowledge me in all your ways and I will make your paths straight”.  As smart as I think that I am, I have learned that I really know nothing unless the Lord teaches me.  So all that I have is from him.  I know much only because I seek him much as a clueless vessel.  “Lord, please help me know, I don’t have a clue”.  He honors that, he is merciful and expands my understanding a lot.  I cannot brag, it is all from him because I admit I don’t have a clue.  When we humble ourselves before him, he will lift us up.  Humility is simply understanding who the credit truly belongs to, that is all.  Those who believe it is because they are naturally smarter than everyone else, are truly the foolish ones, and those who are the dumb and weak in the world, God will lift them up.  Actually, we are all the same to God, foolish or humble, he exalts all who ask because he gives graciously to all without finding fault (James 1:5).

So, as I was saying, when I ask God, “why am I feel dissatisfied, why do I feel discontent?”  He reminds me of something that I have been struggling with for as long as I can recall, and I think of all the ways I have tried to overcame, only to fail.  How I’ve tried to accept it, how at moments of weakness I make excuses and justify it, making room for the flesh.  The bottom line is, even though my flesh is so entrenched and does not want to  change, but Jesus died so that I can have freedom from that.  That is called  being dead in the flesh.  As long as I live according to the old dead man, I will reap soul death.  Jesus died so that I can overcome and rise above.

If I was content living in that state of old ways and having soul death, then I wouldn’t need a Savior nor would I have hope for something better.  Yet, because I have been saved by grace through faith, I been promised new life, and for this reason I am dissatisfied.  That is called soul hunger.  That has been given a label which Jesus called, “righteousness”.  He said, “blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied (Matthew 5:6).  If you are a Christian, and are feeling dissatisfied, I assure you that you are hungry.  Sure, you believe you are hungry for _______..  fill in the blank but I’m predicting what you think belongs in that blank is a desire you have been longing for, but that is not what you are hungry for.  What you and I and every person hungers for is to be righteous.  The dead hunger for life, those who have never been born again.  They are at risk of never obtaining true life as long as they reject the truth and embrace Satan’s lie that there is no true salvation nor purpose in this life.  They say coping is the way to handle this life, to make the best of it, and then expect to die, the end.  Those who are saved, long for fullness of life.  They long to step out of the chicken coop and soar above the storm, because they are now an eagle though in their old way of believing they still live as if they are a chicken who can only hop, flapping its wings and go so far.  We all are meant to soar.  Soaring is being alive, identifying with life, and this begins with dissatisfaction.  Friends, that dissatisfaction is a gift.  It is called, “hunger and thirst for righteousness”.  Until we meet that need, and rise above our old ways of thinking and believing, then we will never have that need quenched.  There is no substitute for it.  It is time to stop believing that you can’t, or that you don’t want to change, because that is a lie.  Instead, let that hunger motivate you to seek what truly satisfies.

When I understand that this intense hunger is a need to overcome, then I also realize there is more aggression to overcome.  I don’t want to be held back any longer.  I don’t want to be passively accept status quo.  I can’t.  I’m hungry.  When a person truly becomes hungry enough, they cannot ignore it anymore.  At some point they stop waiting for food to fall in their life.  If they have no food in the fridge or no money to buy more, than they will beg or start looking in other people’s dumpsters.  When we have a hunger for righteousness, we can get so hungry that we will do whatever we have to do to be filled.  Thank You Lord Jesus for giving us this hunger.  Surely those who have it and see it for what it is, will finally be satisfied.

Rejections, Acceptance, and Waiting

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I could go into detail about my own personal trials, but I don’t think the details matter, plus they might bore some.  I think that we all experience rejection of some kind, when what we seek after or hope for ends in disappointment.  It turns out that the things that we think we need or want are not always part of God’s plan.  Sometimes when we really want something, Satan will tease us with a counterfeit that at the moment seems like everything we ever dreamed up.. but wait.  Then, after we set our heart on it, our hopes are disappointed.  I suppose part of the difficulty in waiting is actually  waiting.  I could have said yes when counterfeits presented itself, or pushed for them, yet I didn’t.  For that I am grateful.  The times when I would have clung to that counterfeit blessing, God closed the door or intervened somehow.  We can be confident that all things in are God’s control.    One thing is clear that despite what our personal trial is, as we wait there is something greater in store for us.  James 1:4 explains to us that when we experience trials and are forced to wait for better times, then it makes us perfect.  Once we are made perfect, then we don’t lack any good thing.  God is certainly able to give us what we need right now, he could bring us riches, a perfect partner, a child, fame or popularity, restored health right now.  Surely his word even explains to us that it is his plan to make us prosper.  Yet, it is God’s plan to make us truly prosper and we are also told that any good thing we have on earth, is only momentary.  Even when he finally gives us what he has promised to us, we won’t have what is needed to be truly perfect and have lasting wellness, until a greater work is done within our heart, our understanding, our soul.  As I’ve waited to have the perfect relationship, hoping to get rid of the loneliness I feel or adding increased satisfaction to me and my family, something has happened.  My needs and desires have changed, and are still evolving.  For surely our light and momentary afflictions are truly only light and momentary compared to the greater glory that will result (2 Corinthians 4:17).  We have three choices the way I see it, we can either rush the process, taking control and grabbing hold of the counterfeit, which will lead to even greater disappointment.  We can be miserable and sulk while we wait, getting angry, rebellious, having a bad attitude, becoming hopeless and frustrated, which does not rush the process it just only adds to our suffering, or we can wait, pray, praise God and focus on what he wants us to focus on.  Hebrews chpt. 12 have much to say about enduring hardship and sufferings, in which we are encouraged to think of our trials as God’s discipline, not the kind of discipline that we call punishment, but rather discipline as in training.  In Hebrews 12:11 we are told something very important, that “if” we are trained by it, we will reap a harvest of righteousness that will be so satisfying.  The key word is “if”.  This has told me that my attitude during personal trials will determine “if” I am being trained by them, or if I am just being like a child and having a tantrum.  We have a choice.  Trials are allowed from God for one purpose, and that is to train us.   The old testament is full of evidence that supports that God used trials to win back his children, to bring them to repentance and to train them, changing their hearts, but many of his children grew rebellious.  The crew that were delivered from Pharoh in Exodus are an example of children with stinky attitudes that chose to have disbelief, despite the miraculous works that they had witnessed, who lacked trust though they tested God repeatedly, and who God finally decided to not allow them to inherit the blessing that he was leading them to in the first place.  I don’t want to become that obstinate, willfully rebellious child who God finally decides not to give me the inheritance he had promised.  I want to be trained, I will take my licks and learn my lessons, and afterwards I will be grateful and trust him regardless of what he dishes out to me.  You want to give me manna rather than meat, ok God done.  Yum.  Am I getting irritated again, ok Lord I’m sorry my flesh grows weak sometimes please have mercy on me and please don’t stop guiding and correcting me, but do what you feel is needed so that I will repent.  I am yours Lord, I want what you plan to give me, and if it is only the desert place then I will praise you for it because father knows best.  I trust God.  I believe.  He is my portion.  Change me Lord, amen.

Solid Rock

As I contemplate all the things that I desire, and don’t yet have, I am reminded that only you satisfy me my solid rock. My flesh is weak, and my heart is fickle never really knowing what will make it happy. Yet, as I seek you in all my ways, you are making my path straight. You say, “lean not on your own understanding”, oh Lord I do seek you in all my hunger and thirst I submit because by your grace I have learned that there is something I yearn for more than anything else, and that is you. My flesh gets restless but it is your will that I yearn for the most. It is your voice that my soul is desperate to hear all the time, and when I don’t hear it for awhile I become even thirstier. Our souls are thirsty, and the majority of humanity doesn’t know that it is you they hunger and thirst for. Some may never know. You are my solid rock, on which I stand. Your faithfulness keeps you here, always available and your love is forbearing, always enduring. No matter if I turn to the right, or to the left, there will always be a voice directing me, my Lord, the solid rock on which I stand.

Nothing Can Separate Me From You

This is the good news. That God loves me and you. It wasn’t until I began to receive deep revelations of the love he had for me that I started truly overcoming fear. He says, “there is nothing that can separate my love from you” (Romans 8:38-39), absolutely nothing. When I wake up in the morning and I sense his presence and hear his voice in my spirit, I feel loved. When I am convicted, I feel loved. His rod and his staff they comfort me (Psalm 23:4), and when I even think about doing what is right and am upset about doing what is wrong, I feel loved. Nothing can separate me, no judgement spoken against me will make God condemn me. He is always for me, never against me. When You truly understand that there is nothing that can separate you from his love, it will rid you of all fear. Thank you Father for your perfect love that casts out fear.

Things To Come

John 16:13 King James Version (KJV)

13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.

It is worth tuning our ears into God, to hear what he has to say for the day, any day, and every day. Sometimes I get so busy operating to doing what I think he wants me to do that many things I contrive are of my own imaginations or desires, and not from what he said. For example, sometimes I spend a lot of time thinking about others in my life, and about what they care about, what they think I should be doing in my life, and often I make my decisions based off of what I think others think is best for me… and I don’t even consciously realize that I am doing this. The truth is that everyone is going to have an opinion about our life, even good God fearing people, but they are not God. The truth is that not even the most well and gifted people know the future of our lives, but only God. God still remains God, and there will only ever be one true God. Even Jesus who we also love of worship told us that he didn’t speak or act on his own accord. I imagine that Jesus made this known to us because even in his reverence of God, he didn’t have faith in his human side/the flesh enough to express his personal opinions about what was right for us and what was not. If even Jesus expresses to us that he isn’t even good, but only God (Mark 10:18), then we can gain some wisdom from this. Thank you God for today as I have sought to make this a day of rest, that you have been there teaching me about how you are God, and no other person in my life knows what it best for my life. God even corrects me about my praise of men. I have a tendency to praise people who I respect and admire because as a prophet, I am also an edifier, and when I see the opportunity to build up another I jump on it, but right now he has told me to stop. Although edification is a gift to the church and can be very appropriate at times, no one is to get the glory except for God. Jesus said, “only God is good”

Mark 10:18 King James Version (KJV)

18 And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God.

Today, I give praise to God. All the insights I get, the knowledge, wisdom, understanding, revelation, inspirations, promptings, and the times I am lead to teach, preach, or correct, and also yes, to edify.. is all from him. The times I am able to be patient, forbearing, loving, compassionate, merciful and helpful.. the times when I have the faith to move mountains, that is all bestowed upon me from God, because within myself I am not good. In my flesh I am impatient, irritable, angry, wrathful, at times quick tempered and I can cut someone down just as fast as I can build someone up with my words. Also, in my flesh I need to be in control meaning I have a need to understand and know everything, yet God has used this tendency within me for his purposes and has taught me to stop trying to be anxious and having in control, but rather to yield the control to him, and seek him with everything I want to know. Relying on God means being patient and waiting. It is only possible to lay down our own tools and works and rest in peace with joy when we trust. It is honestly a relief when we understand that he is God, and I am not. What Jenifer can do and understand is nothing, not even my greatest efforts can make a mud pie that stands, but through him I can build the most marvelous castle that stands. He is God, and I am not. As I have learned (by his grace, and am still learning) to only speak what he says, only listen to what he says… so much stress departs from my life. Other’s problems are not my problems. The opinions of others are not my dictates. I do not have to listen to anyone but God. No one is in a superior place to me in my life. Oh sure, many think they are in a superior place in my life and the lives of others, but they are not. No one can tell me what to do but God. Having a revelation of this liberates me to not concern myself with the approval or opinions of others, but only with what God says, and as I really stop just automatically doing what I think God wants, or what other people says he wants, and I truly turn my ear to hear him, only accepting what he says, then my faith on getting an answer soars. Today as I’ve been seeking him on a topic I’ve had confusion about, really desiring an answer, not my answer but his… he has enlightened this particular verse to me. He says, “ask me … come to me.. and I will show you things that you do not yet know…”… ooh this actually gets me excited.. this means so many good things on so many different levels. For one, it means that he will show me things that are beyond my understanding. It is when we try to figure things out with our own understanding that we become confused. The fact that things bother us or confuse us means that there is higher or simpler thinking about the topic to be had. For now it is in God’s hands and I am waiting for him to show me things to come, and to show me all of the truth. When it doesn’t come automatically it means that it is time to focus on something else while we wait.. because we just are not going to be able to figure this thing out. I am grateful today that as I have sought him in my day he has used this time of what feels like sitting and doing nothing (which is so hard) as a time to remind me that he is God and I am not. Glory to you God. Amen.